You Are My Soul

19.Bitter Sweet..

Pakorn

When Ohm is talking i listened him...As everyone said before it will become too late may be I can hear everything right...And now I want to know why everyone concerned about him more than me whose life turned upside down and he is the one who caused it....

But everything that I heard I don't know but i really felt a pang in my heart..It felt like someone just stabbed me directly in the heart with a sharp Knife.Why couldn't I see his pain at that time..If I saved him and didn't allow that Med to use him then these all are will never happen..And what I did now..I literally hearted him with all my doings and words..I couldn't stop my tears falling from my eyes and iam really at shock..
"After that you know now what happened and all now you are satisfied...even if you didn't get to do any revenge i already suffered a lot but not as much as you...In my every downs there is Dad and Perth and also my friends ....Now Nanon is with me but i know you didn't get anyone because of me...May be no one understands what you suffered or what you went through but I can understand because iam your another part ...We are 1 soul with 2 body Korn...So don't think like no one understands you...I will be there always with you and in these 5 years there's no time that i didn't think , regret or search for you ...I wanted to ask this sorry to you...Can you please give me other chance ...And can we be together like the old times...Please ...Iam sorry Korn.... Don't leave me again..."Ohm said with tears but suddenly his breath starts to uneven I was looking at him and didn't know what to say my eyes are already teared..But when he started to get another Panic attack iam more worried...
"Hey ....Ohm...Ohm...noo...please calm down....Just try to take breath...Nanon...Ohm....Iam sorry ...Ohm... don't scare me....hey Ohmiee...Try to breath naa...Nanon...come here..."I don't know what to do iam too scared and also iam too short of breath because of him suffering and I can't even stand by my own...Ohm is now crying and breathing unevenly I can't help because iam also in that state...so I called Nanon so many time as much as I can and my sounds are not really coming that much...But Nanon ran towards us...
"Hey Ohm....Ohm.....What happened...Pakorn....What did you do....and what is happening to you two....Hey ohm..calm down ....no one is going to leave you ...look here is Pakorn and me...Perth Dad everyone will be with you ... don't panic....keep your breath normal....Ohm...Slowly breath in breath out..."Nanon tried to make him calm...iam somehow collecting breath and trying to be calm...Almost iam being calm...Nanon hugged Ohm and patting his back...Now iam sure whatever will happen Nanon is never going to leave my Ohm and iam happy for them..Nanon is the precious thing Ohm got after his these much sufferings...Ohm is now becoming Ok and he is collecting his breath...Then he looked at me and smiled...How can he smile after scaring me like this..

"You scared me asshole "I said and looked at him angrily
"Sorry naa..Korn...now are you going to leave me like before..."He looked at me with his same puppy eyes that i used to admire 5 years ago and that I see when he wanted to please me something....
"How can I you silly boy...When you have this bobba eyes that keep me like this"I smiled at him...The smile I lost long time ago and the smile I used to have ....He smiled at me too and he left Nanon's embrace and came towards me and hugged me....I hugged him also..
"Korn....iam sorry naa...for hurting you..."He said
"Ohmie ....iam sorry naa.... sorry for all my doings...I know iam so stupid and I can't be with you when you need me the most and i didn't hear you when you wanted to say everything... Don't hate me Ohmie...Iam not going to leave you at any cost and as always I will protect you naa..."I said iam crying like a baby I know but I don't want to break the hug it's like I got back something precious after i lost it ....Ohm also crying...

"Ooii....ooiii...This brothers are so dramatic...I can't even stand here..."Nanon said I can see he was also crying.Ohm broke the hug and looked at Nanon
"Why...are you jealous but he's my brother okay...Now if you tease me or broke up with me I have someone who is beside me and deal with you ...You know that..."Ohm said ..I literally smiled at his silliness
"Ooh...yaa..now you are showing off...But remember I have two brothers...even your brother is head over heals with my brother..."Nanon said to Ohm while looking at me also and smirking...I know he referred to Nanfah but where is Fah
"Aww...i literally forgot...but Nanon where is Nanfah"I asked
"Ooh...you finally remember me.."Nanfah entered to the room
"Aww..You are hearing everything from behind the door....Too nosy...As always..."Ohm said and gave him annoying look...why these two are bickering always...
"I am not you...who is crying like a baby look at you...but I didn't expect you to be also like that"Fah said pointing me...
"Ooh ....really...but what am I supposed to do when my whole life is messed up and it's resolved..."I said placing my hand on Ohm's shoulder
"Yaa you Brothers are more dramatic than us ... what's with the cold war and protective boyfriends attitude but actually it was nice ....I didn't expected it from you Fah"Ohm said...teasing Fah..
"Who said iam his boyfriend...iam not and I don't believe in love or anything..And if I love anyone ever its not him for sure..."Fah said but it's some how hurt me..Like always iam the rejected one..at first it was just fun but on progression he is someone iam comfortable with and I have some unknown feelings for him that I never felt with anyone even I fell for someone in the past it didn't like anything i feel for him.
"Aww... what's the problem with my brother.."Ohm asked iam also curious
"Because the answer is in your question...he's your brother and moreover your twin and he look as same as you and i look as same as your boyfriend what is this a photocopy or what ....It's not good idea and I don't like more than a one night stand"He said...His silly reasons really made me laugh ...
"Why...why are you laughing..."he asked
"Aww ...Nothing..But Ohm it's not gonna work you already know I want to resolve something with someone..And you..."Then I went close to Fah