Miraculous One-Shots and Smuts

🤍 lonely dance - chat noir 🤍

haha hi- I may or may not be back for a while.

so I know i've used a lot of songs by them, but this one is another song by Set It Off. I only got this idea because I was rereading the chapter "the haunting" and I got back into my SIO era. also I promise I will try to have other characters in chapters im just kinda in love with adrien.

also, yes I have watched most of season 5. I only got to 20 I think because Disney+ doesn't have 21-27 right now. so please no spoilers even tho I basically already know what is gonna happen bc tiktok and reddit lol.

anyways I probably don't start or end these the same anymore so please just try to bear with me. I haven't written here for a while lol. anyways, I hope you guys enjoy this one! there is a specific time to play the song but play it whenever if you'd like!

warning: mental health topics

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I hadn't really been hanging out with my friends recently, and honestly I didn't want to tell them why. I had been getting together with Luka so he could teach me the guitar because I wrote a song. Marinette was the only one who knew I was learning the guitar, but I told her not to tell anyone else. Honestly, I think she forgot. "So, Y/n, you down?" I heard my name come from beside me. I snapped back to reality and looked to see all four of my closest friends staring at me.

"What was that?" I asked.

"We're going to the ice rink after school. Wanna go?" Alya asked me. 

I shook my head politely, "I have something to do."

"You always have something to do. Are you hiding something dudette?" Nino asked with a laugh and nudged me with his elbow. I laughed nervously and looked around before suddenly standing up and making my way somewhere where I could be alone. I made sure to take my tray with me. Once it was dumped, I continued on to the library to spend the rest of my lunch.

It wasn't that I didn't want them to know I was writing a song, I didn't want them to know the lyrics of the song. It was how I truly felt -- lonely. The song's name was Lonely Dance, and I had thought of it on a day where I wasn't doing too well mentally. Mari, Alya, Nino, and Adrien only knew the outside of my personality. The side I put on for them to show them I'm fine, when in all reality, I'm not.

I know others have it worse, and I tell myself that every day, but sometimes it's just too much to handle. I had been working a job in retail that treated me like shit, my parents were only ever home to yell at me, and I can't talk to my friends about it. I don't see anyone or take any medication for it, but I know I have depression. My parents just won't take me to see a doctor that knows what they're doing. They only take me to the ones who say it's all in my head or it's because of where we lived. We moved to Paris because of a doctor saying that! I didn't want to leave my friends once again. Plus, I really like Paris.

We had moved from the United States to England the first time. We stayed there and my accent was starting to change, until we moved to Australia because of another doctor. Then finally my parents decided Paris was the best place for me and we've come here. I'd say my accent is a bit of French and British English speakers. I was bullied for it by Chloe there for a while. Bullying is also a big problem I have with my health. 

I used to do art and post it, until my parents found the art I was making was very disturbing and banned me from art. I tried to get into sports but I was always the one to get hurt. I tried plants and they could never stay alive. So there for a while, I journaled and wrote my own fantasy novel. It isn't a full novel and will never find the light of day, but I tried. Recently I had met Luka when I went to see Kitty Section. I spoke with him a bit and told him I'd like to learn in secret. Luka is definitely our therapist friend.