Irresistible

chapter 10

the next morning - evas pov

I woke up feeling tired as fuck, and with the most horrible headache.
I turned to Dahlia.
She was fast asleep.

I decided to go downstairs to the kitchen to make breakfast while she was still asleep.
Grabbing my airpods off of my nightstand, I went down stairs.
The stone roses started playing.

I had my airpods on noise cancellation, so I didn't hear anything that was going on.
It was sort of comforting, like I didn't have anything to worry about, It was just me and my music.

I made some food and sat down at the kitchen table, scrolling through my phone.
I opened insta.

Something had caught my eye, I scrolled back up, to find out it was a photo of Rebecca and Bojan.
I didn't even know how Rebecca's insta kept coming up, but it really started to make my blood boil.

She was almost always there, you couldn't get rid of the girl.
In the photo Bojan looked pretty unsettled.
I laughed at it.

I got tapped on the shoulder.
"Maybe he realized what a bitch she is."
I hear someone muffle into my ear, I didn't hear it 100%, but I imagined it was Dahlia.
I turned, and to my surprise it was her.
She took my airpods out of my ear.

"Hey!" I frowned.
"I want you to be completely honest with me Evs." She began.
I raised my eyebrow.
"Are you jealous of Rebecca and Bojan?" She asked.

"W-What?" I stuttered, laughing awkwardly.
She then put her hand on my shoulder.
"Shut up! No!!" I yelled.
"It's okay if you are." She admitted.

"Dahlia!! I'm not! And even if I was there's nothing I can do about it." I said, putting my phone on the counter.

"So you admit it?" She laughed.
"Well.. I don't know." I said.
"Maybe." I continued.
"I really don't know, it does bother me, but I think it's cause it's my literal sister."

"I know." Dali put her arm around me.
I rested my head into her.
"And besides, you have Conor!" She reminded me.
"I know, I know.." I said.

She was right.
I had Conor.
Bojan was trying to tease me.
Sure.

"Don't get yourself all worked up, it isn't worth it." She looked me straight in the eye.
I nodded my head.

"How about you text Conor anyway?" She asked me.
"I probably should." I agreed.
I opened up messages, and started texting him.

Bojans POV

I had no sleep, at all.
My mind wouldn't get off the topic of Eva.
And the things that Rebecca said about her.
I was really starting to question Rebecca, and if she was actually someone I wanted to surround myself with.

I had been up all night thinking about it, and although it made me sound and look like an absolute dick, I wasn't ready for a relationship with her.
I had been the one that had asked her in the first place, but seeing what she was actually like, it really did put me off.

It was a whole new perspective of her.
But the thing was, I couldn't admit the truth to the boys.
Well, I could.
But I felt as if I couldn't, as if they wouldn't understand or tell me I was being dramatic.

None of the boys were awake yet, it was around 7am.
I knew what I had to do.
I got showered and dressed, got an uber, and went to Rebecca's house.

I needed to get it all off of my chest, sooner rather than later.
Hopefully the boys wouldn't realise I was gone, but that was the least of my worries at the moment.

"Hello." I greeted the driver.
He nodded his head.
I gave him the address and we started making our way to her house.
Although I was nervous, I was glad that I wouldn't have to feel like this anymore.

I did hesitate a few times though.
It would take a lot of courage to tell her.
"Thank you." We reached Rebecca's.
"Goodbye." The driver said.
I gave him a 20 pound note and got out of the car.

Walking up to the house, I was scratching my arm as I didn't know how Rebecca would take this.
Sure, I still wanted to get to know her, this wasn't just about what she had said.
I really just didn't think I was ready for this amount of commitment yet.

I just hoped that she would understand.
If anything, just accept the fact that I wanted to take things slower.

I finally got the courage to knock on the door.
There was no answer for the first 5 minutes.
Which was fair enough, it was 8am.

But eventually, she opened the door.
Rebecca rubbed her eyes.
"Bojan.. what are you doing here so early?" She yawned.
"I need to talk to you about something." I said, my nails now jagging into my arm.

"Come in." She rolled her eyes.
I walked in, and we sat down.
"What is it?" Rebecca asked me.

"Well-" I stuttered.
She continued to stare at me.
"I-" Again.
"I'm not sure if I can do this." I admitted, but in the wrong fucking way.
"What?" She replied, her eyes immediately widening.
"No-No that's not what I mean." I shook my head.

"I mean.. like as fast as this." I said, more relaxed.
"What do you mean?" She asked.
"I'm not sure if i'm ready for that full relationship commitment yet." I told her.

"But you- you were the one that asked me to be your girlfriend!" Her voice started to project.
"I know." I said, now disappointed in myself.
"I don't understand." Rebecca said, looking to the ground.
"Look, I really like you, I do- but I really don't appreciate the stuff you said about Eva." I said.

"Huh?" She looked utterly confused.
"Why do you two not get along?" I asked her.
"Well- she's-" Rebecca started to lose her point.
"She's just a spoilt brat who always gets what she wants, no matter what." She backed herself up.

"How?" I argued.
"How can you not see what I see? And I thought you hated her guts!" She snapped.
"Look, me and Eva aren't best friends, maybe not even friends, but no one deserves to have that stuff said about them." I said, in a calm voice.

"And you're one to talk?! You bullied her all throughout that year she was in Slovenia!" Rebecca's voice started turning into a shout.

"Yeah- yeah. You're right- but it was wrong!" I told Rebecca.
"Bit late for sorry isn't it." She rolled her eyes at me.
"The way you talk about your sister isn't okay, I bet you couldn't even name one thing she did to you." I snapped back at her.

"She-! She-!" Rebecca stuttered, lost for words at this point.
"Exactly." I said.

"I know I'm not the best sister, but I don't like Eva, and I never ever will!" Rebecca told me.
"And I don't know why you're so bothered about it, you're meant to hate her, that's how it always was." Rebecca explained.

It all started to add up.
We were sat in silence for a good while.

"Bojan, Im sorry." She said.
I rolled my eyes.
"I'm serious, I don't want this to come between us, but if you want to take things slow then that's fine." She had changed the topic.
I nodded my head.
"Okay." I uttered.

Again, we were sat in silence, this time it was actually painful.
"So.. I'll get going then." I said to her.
"I don't want you to." Rebecca said to me.

"Why?" I asked.
"I feel guilty." She said.
"Why would you feel guilty?" I said, confused.

"You're right, I shouldn't say those kind of things." She admitted.
"Eva's great, she really really is." Rebecca said.
"I'm just.. I'm not as good enough as her." She went on.

"What? Don't say that?" I looked at Rebecca.
"I guess I was always jealous." She admitted.
Damn right she was.
Rebecca looked at the ground.
As much as I wanted to leave, I couldn't leave her like this.

I put my arm over Rebecca, and let her cry into my shoulder.
"I'm sorry-." Her voice muffled.
"It's okay." I said, awkwardly waiting for my cue to leave.

She cried for a good 5 minutes, until she finally calmed down.
Rebecca wiped her eyes.
"You should go." She told me.
"Yeah- I'll go." I told her.
"Text me." She said.
"Yep." I quickly said.
Rebecca waved at me, and I left.

Rebecca's POV
Did he seriously believe all of that?
Fuck, men are stupid.