Irresistible

chapter 13

"Right.. I should be going." Bojan said.
"Yeah.. of course." I replied.

"I'll see you soon then?" Bojan told me.
"Yup, see you soon." I said.
I so badly just wanted to tell him all of my thoughts about me and him, but I couldn't, and it was causing me actual pain.

I felt guilty, and so wronged.
We just spent the next minute just staring at each other.
Locked into each others eyes.
No thoughts, just me and him.

"Listen, we have to move on. The past is the past." Bojan began.
"What?" I replied.
"Eva, I don't expect you to forgive me in an instant, but what happened in high school, I'm not like that anymore." He said.
"I swear I'm not, and it was so fucked up of me and the boys to treat you like that."

"Are you messing with me? Because if you didn't mean that then I will kill you." I laughed.
It was silent.
Clearly no laughing matter.

"Bojan?" I finally got the courage to ask him.
"Yes?" He replied.
"That kiss... did it really mean anything?" I immediately looked down at the ground.
Kinda regretting what I said, but I did want an answer to it.

"Only if you wanted it to." Bojan quietly said, clearly wanting me to hear it.
"Steady there, Bojci." I shoved his arm.
"Just forget about it, honestly." I told Bojan.
His face turned confused.
He nodded.
I had sent him quiet.

"Have you decided what you're going to tell Conor?" Bojan asked.
"Well as a matter of fact, no."
"I have fuck all." I said.

"Cant say I have anything." Bojan told me.
"Well that's helpful isn't it?" I turned to look at Bojan.
He rolled his eyes.

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"Alright, well I'll get going then." Bojan said, getting up.
"Yeah you will." I mumbled.
"What did you say?" I heard Bojan turn around, immediately looking at me.

"Nothing." I said, putting my hands up in the air.
"Is that so?" He teased back.
I tilted my head, raising my eyebrow.
Bojan started getting closer to me.

"I hate you." I heard him whisper into my ear, winking as he opened the front door.
He closed it behind him.

FUCK.
What was this man doing to me?
So flirty, and for what?
But was I complaining?
Absolutely not.

I started thinking about what he had said.
"Only if you wanted it to."
Well yes, I wanted it to.
Of course I fucking did.

Then I proceeded to think about Conor, and how I would explain myself to him.
He would probably never speak to me again.
Which, would be pretty awkward as Wild Youth and Joker Out are literally friends.

Stressing, I circled the living room around 10 times, thinking about what I was going to tell Conor.
But then again, I didn't even know if he would speak to me.

I really like Conor, and he means the world to me, so to think I had hurt him it would really fuck me up.

As far as I knew, Conor and Bojan didnt really get on, especially not now.
Mia was upstairs, I could hear her distinctively talking to someone.

I decided to watch TV, and then talk to Dahlia about everyone, and find out her opinion on everything.

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Bojan's POV

The tension between me and Eva is always crazy.
Sometimes I actually can't tell if she hates me or if she's just messing.