George's POV
I woke up to my sister looking at me. I didn't know where I was or when it was. I didn't even remember anything that lead me here.
"GEORGE" I hear my sister simply shout. I look over at her and then it hits me. I'm in the hospital
"Why am I here?" I asked very confused. My sister just simply lowered her head and said
"I found you unconscious at the bottom of the stairs. You were bleeding a lot. You had a very weak pulse.i didn't know if you would make it" she said as tears filled her eyes and gently dropped down onto her skirt. It all came back to me.I had a anxiety attack and a panic attack after I fell down the stairs.
"How long have I been here?" I ask as try to sit up,but my sister pushed me down so I didn't hurt myself anymore by sitting up and fainting.
"2 days, it's Halloween tonight." She said. I started to panic again. I was meant to have streamed and I was meant to have talked to sap and Dream.
I scanned the room and saw a clock. It read 4am. I wasn't out of it to long thankfully. Now I needed to think of an excuse to tell sapnap and Dream so that they don't worry. They only know what the fans know. They think I'm a healthy 24 year old man, Lie, who lives in London. They also think I see my family regularly because that's always my excuse to head off and try to eat. When I say try to eat I mean eat half an apple at most on a normal day. On a good day its a small meal. I try to have a good day once a week but sometimes that doesn't work.
The doctor eventually walked in and asked me
"When was the last time you ate George." I froze. I didn't want to let my sister down but I knew I had to tell the truth whether I liked it or not.
"4 days ago I think." I said I I prepared myself for all the backlash that was about to come
"4 DAYS GEORGE" My sister yelled as I started to cry. The doctor looked at me and said.
"That's not good George you should be eating more often than that." The doctor said while I finally got the confidence to tell the doctor that I suffer from anorexia.
"I suffer from anorexia." I mumbled loud enough for the doctor to hear it.
"How long?" The doctor said while he tried to touch me but I flinched.
"Sorry." He said as he backed off
"It's OK, uhm about 14 years." I said as I avoided eye contact.
"14 years, that's a long time George." I heard him say as I looked at my sister.
"Only my sister knows because no one cares enough in my life."
I said.Once hearing that my sister looked up and said
"I'm not the only one George, mum dad Liam lily care. Never mind your friends. If you told them everything, yes they would probably be shocked and they might feel guilty for not noticing it sooner, but they will be here for you and try to help you in so many ways at your own time. They care more than you think they do. You always say how they make you genuinely happy and all your anxiety goes away while you speak to them. They have already helped you without even knowing and I don't think that they would EVER leave you at such a crucial and hurtful time. Especially if it is life or death. If they ever do then I would track them down and kick their butts for you." She says as she laughs at the last sentence.as much as I wanted to deny what she said I knew it was true.
Dream and Sap have helped me so much. Dream has been with me for nearly 10 years now and he has never went one day without texting or calling me to check in how I'm doing. He has always looked out for me. If it wasn't for him I wouldn't be on YouTube never mind Twitch. For some reason I feel different about him than sap. Sapnap's always there to make me laugh and annoy me. He was there when I needed someone however he wasn't as comforting as dream.
Once the doctor left and my sister was asleep I decided to call Dream. I knew i had to start with Dream because even though he would give me the biggest lecture he would still make sure I was alright. I was only going to tell him about my anxiety and panic attacks. I didn't dare mention my anorexia. Not yet anyway.
I picked up my phone which was on my bedside table and I looked at it. Over 300 missed calls from Dream and 26 from sapnap. That just made me laugh. I opened up Dream's contact and decided to facetime him because it would be easier.
Within a few rings he picked up like usual. Camera turned off and voice on.
"GEORGE." he screamed my name and I just chuckled missing his sweet voice.
"I have so many questions but let's start with where are you why aren't you in your office?" He asked
I just replied with "Well I kinda phoned you to tell you a couple of things, I think most of your questions will be answered. All I can ask is that you hear me out and don't tell sap yet because I don't know when I will tell him."
"OK I will listen to you and I will make sure not to tell sap. He's away at Karl's anyway, but you have to promise me you will talk to him. He is as worried as I am about you." Hearing that melted my heart
"Uhm so I will start off with where I am. I am in the hospital. I am here because I fell down the stairs, I cracked my head open but luckily someone called an ambulance because they heard me fall. I fractured my wrist but that will be fine. Now is where I want you not to tell sap. You can tell him the last bit but not what's coming up, I thought it would be easier to tell you first because your older and you might be able to help. I struggle with Panic attacks and Anxiety. With the anxiety I get a lot of attacks pretty much every other week or sometimes even weekly. That also kinda played a role in me being in hospital. I don't know what caused them but when I fell I started to have a anxiety attack which lead to a panic attack. I didn't finish my anxiety attack so that might have been why I passed out. I was struggling to breathe. So yeah I guess that's out now." I chuckle off my tears at the last sentence.
"Wow George, I'm so happy you came to me about this and I definitely won't tell Sap, it's your place to tell him. Of course I will help you when you have a bad anxiety day or if you end up having an attack. I will also help when you have a panic attack. I never want you to be like this again." He said. He sounded genuine and worried.
"To cheer up the mood, I am getting released later." I just simply smile and look at his icon wondering what he is doing right now, whether he's smiling or whether he's worried.
"That's good to hear. I'm glad your getting out before your birthday." He sounded really happy, which I was really happy about because I knew I just made him happy.
"yeah they they wanted to keep me in for another couple of days but once I told them it was my birthday tomorrow they just said that I could leave then." I laughed a little at what I had just said.
"It's been great talking to you Georgie but I need to go, it's very late here and I need sleep." He stated before he left the call leaving me on my phone in a room with my sleeping sister.
About half an hour later she woke up and said she had a suprise for me. Then she called someone. Not long after I heard running. I had no idea who it could be but they seemed happy to see me.
It was Liam and Lily. They came down from Scotland to see me.
"Liam Lily." I shouted as they ran up and hugged me. I had no idea they were coming down but needless to say I was extremely happy to see them.
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I had to end it here because I have got more plans that I want to write and they can be put In more chapters.
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FanfictionIt's coming up to george's birthday but things go downhill. Will he like his present or will he hate it?, George struggles with anxiety and panic attacks. Later on he finds out he has something that will answer all his questions. Luckily his best fr...
