Secrets, Dnf.

Chapter 12

Dream POV ( end of the trip)

I found it very hard to cover up my feelings for George. I've loved George ever since I met him. I can't deny it. Sapnap knows how I feel exactly. He only found out because I couldn't hide it from him anymore. I remember the day so clearly.

Flashback...

D: Hey Sapnap

S: Hey Dream. What's up?

D: i might have kept a secret from you, don't worry it's nothing to big but to be honest and fair I had no idea that this secret is even a thing until a couple of minutes ago. That's why I wanted to call you immediately.

S: stay calm dream have you took your anxiety meds?

D: n-n-no I h-h-haven't.

S:right Dream calm down. Focus on 5 things you can see.

D:uhh a carpet, walls,my hands, my phone and my bed.

S: what's four things that you can hear.

D: your voice, my breaths, patches and my foot tapping.

S: what is three things you can touch.

D: my carpet patches and my phone.

S: two things you can smell.

D: my cologne and pancakes

S: one thing that makes you happy.

D: George

S: do you feel more calm?

D: yes

S: next time don't give he a heart attack and take your stupid meds.

D: sorry. I kinda forgot because I had a secret I was trying to figure out.

S: what's the secret then?

D: I may or may not have feelings for a certain person that we may or may not know and may or may not be very close to.

S: omg I knew it. YOU HAVE FEELINGS FOR GEORGE.

D: yes I have feelings for George but the question is does he like me back or does he only like me like a friend.

S: well I could guarantee that he likes you back but maybe not the way you like him. I could be wrong and he could lime you that way but then I could be right and he might only like you as a friend. I'll try figure it out for you.

D: thank you sapnap. I didn't want to keep you in the dark about this. You are my best friend after all. You have been my closest friend for years on end and I don't know how I could ever cope without you. 

S: It's no problem you are lime my big bro. Can I maybe admit something.

D: sure go for it.

S: I also may or may not have a crush on a certain person that we both know.

D: is it who I think it is... Karl?

S: yes. I love him dearly but I have no idea how on earth I'm going to confess. It's doing my head in. I don't want to confess and screw up our friendship just in case he doesn't love me back.

D: don't worry about it he will love you back. Have you seen the way he looks at you?

S: I mean I have but I don't think he likes me.

D: sapnap just shut up for a moment and pay attention. He loves you. You will regret it later if you don't confess

S: I know I'm just nervous 

D: why don't If I do it you do it? Does that sound fair? So that if anything goes wrong we're here for each other and we know exactly what it is and we go through it together.

S: that sounds very fair and it definitely sounds like a plan.

Back to present time

I needed to get away. I can't  be in a room with him because I am to scared that I will accidentally say something stupid and mess up our friendship.

I booked a flight home and i told sapnap. George was feeling quite tired the night before we left so he went to bed early. 

From the time being here I could tell there were things that he wasn't telling us. I just couldn't figure out one of them. I had an idea of another thing he could have. I think he has some mind of eating disorder because ever since we have been here he has only ate a few meals and he was extremely skinny. I didn't want to say anything about it because if he didn't tell me then he probably didn't want me to know about it and I know how he feels if it is a eating disorder. I used to have an eating disorder when I was a teenager. I luckily got over it when I was 18.

I still have no idea what the other thing he is keeping from me is. Once he left I mentioned it to sap.

"Hey sapnap, do you think there's something wrong with him?" I sat while fidgeting. I was going to say too much but I also needed to know it wasn't just me who saw this.

"I mean he is extra skinny and pale. So yes I think there is something up." He replied he seemed a bit concerned for him

"I just wanted to have some assurance, because I think it could potentially be a case of me when I was 18" which is very incredibly rough depending on how long it has been going on for.

"Don't mention anything because if it was what we think it is then he definitely won't talk about it.he doesn't talk about his health past nor his feelings to us never mind a disorder that has been forcing him to not eat. None of us know how He's feeling so this is an incredible but frightening moment. It's good we have discovered it however it is bad that we have discovered what it means." He said as he looked at me. He knows that I will be super worried about George even if it's a simple cold.

"I guess your right. Anyway we need to pack." I got up from where I was sitting and walked up to my room. I packed everything up and put all my luggage into an Uber we called.

Before we left for the last time I went to check up on George which could go either way. I could either find him asleep and say goodbye without him knowing or worst case is he's awake and I have to say I'm leaving and come up with a random excuse.

I walked upstairs and quietly opened his door.

He was sleeping like a baby. He looked so cute and fragile at the same time. He was wrapped in his duvet and he looked super cozy. The way his chest rises slowly and them falls slowly is just amazing. 

I didn't want to leave but I had to or I would be late for my flight.

Don't get me wrong I want to live with him forever however I don't know how the hell I will hide my feelings. I don't want to loose him.

And with that I Left...

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