my king, august horn of årnäs

nytt läsår, nya vänner

after the christmas vacation, Wille and i started a new school year at Hillerska. im being honest when i tell you that i didnt have much to do in my free time, but Sara and i really did get closer, we would hang out alot and i would visit her in Bjärstad. but not too much, cause Wille still wasnt alowed to spend time with Simon.

i got my hair and nails done for the first day back at Hillerska and Anne, the best girl that works in the castle, she took me shopping for new clothes.

"come with me" Wille said. he just got off the phone. it was probably Felice, they got super close in the vacation.

"alright?" i said and followed my brother inside the building.

we walked to the boys common room and Walter rushed over to me "Princess Ivy!" he said in a funny voice

"hey girl" i said in a funny voice as well, Walter was almost becoming my bestfriend. he is the best.

"the crown prince!" the rest of the boys started cheering while Wille leaned against the door frame.

"uh, who wants to go to the third- years party?" Wille mumbled, but he was smirking. he gave me a look and i smirked too.

i turned to Walter and whispered "my opportunity to fuck with Vincent"

Walter chuckled and turned to my brother "sure, but um.. we are not invited and we dont have permission to go out"

"no, but if you help me get past Malin, then i can get us in" Wille whispered so his bodyguard doesnt hear.

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when we walked over to the entrance of the party, thats where Vincent was.

"what the hell is this" he laughed, not noticing me yet "what are you doing here?" Vincent chuckled.

"we're goin in" Wille mumbled.

"no, no, no" "who gave you permission to leave school?" Vincent leaned against the door and scoffed.

i pushed thru the boys causing Vincent to stand up properly and look directly in my eyes when he saw me.

"why does that matter? we're goin in" Wille repeated himself while Vincent just stood there, frozen. it was the first time we saw each other after the vacation.

"come on, go home, you guys. seriously" Nils took a sip from his cup after he said that and stood infront of me.

"go get August" Wille demanded while Vincent and i exchanged looks.

"hell no" Nils replied, taking another sip from his plastic cup.

"no, no, wait. you know, thats a great idea. lets get August and see what the prefect says" Vincent said, but he wouldnt let his eyes meet mine.

not long after, August walked thru the entrance to the party and took a quick glare at me.

"Wille! welcome back, man" he said and slid his hands in his pockets.

my brother scoffed at August "you're supposed to say Crown Prince"

i looked up at Wille and smirked a bit while i licked the inside of my cheek, keeping my eyes on Vincent.

"what?" August frowned his eyebrows and Nils began to snicker.

"you're supposed to say Crown Prince" Wille repeated himself. i liked this new, confident version of him.

"if the Crown Prince, together with princess Ivy were to return immediately,
then maybe i wont dole out any reprimands" August said slowly.

Wille licked his lips and said "no, i think we're gonna stay here, actually"

"the Crown Prince.. must understand-" August almost finished his sentence but was cut off by my brother "challenge me" 'tell me what to do. see what happens"

August fake smiled at the whole group of us "if you insist, then i suppose i can make an exeption"

Wille started walking to the entrance, bumping into August but he ignored it. everyone followed my brother, Henry was by my side and grabbed my waist after he saw Vincent glaring at us.
before we got inside i blew my ex a kiss and walked in with Henry and Walter.

"dont let him ruin your mood" Walter yelled in my ear, trying to be louder than the music around us.

"i wont" i gave him a fake smile and started walking around the room.

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i went to see the therapist the next day, and decided to be thruthful about my issues.

"Princess Ivy?" he said.

"hm?" i looked up at my therapist while i started biting my thumbnail.

"were you listening?" he asked.

"no.. sorry" i apologized and looked out of the window.

"its okay, i am not here to torture you, im here to help you.." the school counselor continued talking while he pointed at a jar with cookies in it "want some?"

i shook my head "no, thank you"

"well.. should we begin then?" Boris, the therapist said and sat down on a chair infront of me.

"yeah.. well, i dont think there is much to talk about.. i mean, most of my stress and anxiety was formed when.. my brother Erik um... passed away" my eyes started filling up with tears but i didnt want to cry. i cannot seem weak "but most of the overthinking has improved, i mean Vincent used to help me with my feelings alot but.. he isnt around anymore"

"is there a reason for that?" Boris asked while he chewed on a cookie he just took from the big jar.

"yeah, well we um broke up. but to be honest, it didnt really feel real. it felt more like a misunderstanding" i said while my eyes traveled from the counselor, to my hands and the open window "i tried to explain something to him but i guess it only made Vincent more angry and yeah maybe thats why we arent together anymore"

"do you think that its possible to fix things with him?" he asked but i didnt answer, i havent even thought about that "its only if the princess wants that"

"i dont know, i will try" i shrugged and stood up "thank you, Boris. i will come by tommorow"

"of course" he smiled at me.

on my way out of the door i grabbed a magazine about anxiety and rushed to my room.

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i looked for my laptop and searched up the breathing exercise that was mentioned in the magazine.

"breath in.. and breath out" the man on the video said. it started to look like it was almost helping but as soon as someone knocked on my door i shut my laptop and rushed over.

"hey?" i said. August was standing infront of me in the doorway.

"who told you about the video" August spat out at me.

"what the fuck?" i looked at him "its literally none of your bussines. even the video wasnt your bussines, August"

"i just need the name. It wasnt Sara so who?" August said quickly while staring me deep into eyes.

"why would it be Sara?" i frowned my eyebrows "she is the most innocent girl here"

"yeah, you gotta tell me the name, Ivy" he continued.

"i cant. even if i wanted to" i started closing the door but he stopped me.

"please" the boy insisted.

"give me time to think about it" i said and shut the door.