my king, august horn of årnäs

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I walked into a bathroom near the gym and started crying out like i never did before.

My knees began to get weak and i couldnt catch my breath while my whole face was getting more and more wet from my tears.

"Iv" August's gaze softened when he saw me and grabbed my whole body while i sank into his chest.

The boy held me in his arms and got down on his knees while one of his hands held the back of my head and another one was wrapped around my chest "Its okay, love"

"its.." I started breathing heavily without facing the boy "its not okay, August..."

August grabbed my face with both of his soft, gentle hands and looked me in the eyes "Why are you crying, Ivy?" he asked.

I took a deep breath while my vision began to get blurry, filling up with more tears "I miss Erik"

August pulled me in another hug and sighed "I do too" ... "We all do"

I cried some more into August's chest and couldnt believe myself for betraying my brother like this. Wille hates him and would never want me anywhere near this boy..

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When i got to my room alone, i decided to take a quick shower in Felice's room and go see my brother. I had the feeling that we havent talked properly in awhile and need to catch up on some things. I also wanted to tell him about August.

When i got dressed and ready, i made my way to the boys common rooms until my phone rang. I grabbed it from my pocket and saw Walter calling me. Ive completely forgot about the date tonight.

"Hello?" I picked up.

"Ivy, where are you?" Walter asked in a worried tone "Ive been waiting by the lake for half an hour"

"Walter, im sorry" My voice cracked by the embaressement that i forgot about my bestfriend "I cant make it tonight" "This day was so stresful and.."

Before i could continue, Walter cut me off "I know, i get it" He said "I saw August run after you"

"What?" I frowned my brows, even tho the boy couldnt even see me "No, its nothing with August"

"Ivy, stop lying to yourself" Walter sighed "Everyone sees the way you guys look at each other" ... "And like Vincent said, August really is obssesed with you"

"Walter, but thats August's problem, okay?" I said "And ill make it up to you"

"Its alright" The boy said and i felt terrible but i didnt want to deal with him right now so i hung up and knocked on my brothers door.

"Ivy" Wille opened it and let me come in his room.

It was quiet for awhile until i sat down on his bed with my brother next to me.

"Look, im sorry about earlier" He said "I didnt know the palace would react like this"

"Why did you threaten them?" I asked and looked at him with my big, puffy eyes.

Wille sighed, and i could tell he knew i was crying "Simon went on a date with someone else and it upseted me so much" .. "I called mom and well, a discussion began" ... "But its good thing we are staying, right?" Wille smiled at me big.

I looked down and could feel my eyes fill up with tears again "I just dont get why you dont think about others while taking actions, Wille"

"What do you mean?" He asked and i wiped my tears away. No more crying.

"You always do something that brings both of us in trouble" I said "And you never think about me" ... "Last year, you got into fight but we both got sent here. Today you threatened mom, and we both were supposed to go home"

"Thats not my desicion to make tho, Iv" He said, defending himself "I stand up for myself but its always mom who decides if you have to go along with the consequences"

"You are right" I sighed and gave him a warm smile that he returned "Sorry, twin" "I just want us to get along more"

Wille nodded and leaned his head back "Today was awful" He chuckled and so did i.

"Yeah, it really was" We laughed together and i decided to not tell him about August yet. At least not for now.

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Next morning seemed way better than yesterday. I called Walter and we agreed to meet up for coffee in an hour before his training.

I got myself ready and knocked on Felice's door. She found my chemistry book in the library few days ago and promised to give it back.

"Ivy" She smiled at me in the door.

"Hey, im just here for my chem book" I said and waited for Felice to pass it to me.

"Here" Felice gave me the book and leaned on her doorframe "Wait, before you go.."

"Yeah?" I looked at her.

"Are you okay?" She asked with concern on her face.

"Of course" I smiled and started walking away "I always am"

When i met up with Walter i felt like never before. This boy had the power to make me forget about negative energy and stress.

"You sure you dont want any coffee?" I asked and took a sip from my latte i just got in the cantine.

"No, never before training" Walter said as we sat down outside on a bench next to the lake "It makes me more tired"

"Oh, come on, dont be a pussy, Wally" I chuckled "Just say if you dont like the taste"

Walter raised his eyebrows and grabbed the cup from my hand "I dont know who you're calling a pussy, princess"

I covered my mouth giggling when the boy took a sip and made a funny expression.

"Nasty drink, Ivy" Wally chuckled with me until it was time for him to go.

We walked to the spot he was meeting the rest of the team together, but as soon as i saw Vincent, Walter decided i shouldnt walk any further.

"Okay, Iv" He looked down at me "Ill see you tomorrow"

"Vi ses, Willy" I smiled up at him and wrapped my hands around his neck, giving him a tight hug.

I saw some of the boys turn around and look at us while they all waited for the whole team to arrive. It was especially August and Wille while Vincent just rolled his eyes.