Killing Butterflies (Being Rewritten)

Chapter 55: i dont want to die

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING!!! THIS CHAPTER INCLUDES SUICIDE, TRANS SLURS, GAY SLURS, DEPRESSION, BLOOD, MENTIONS OF SELF-HARM, AND OVERDOSING

READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!!!
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A 13 year old izuku, stood on the edge of a building, tearing up as he struggled for breath, not that he needed to breath, nor wanted to. . .

Izuku turned around, his back towards the edge of the building as he counted the steps he took backwards. . .

. . .1 step. . .

. . .2 step. . .

. . .3 steps. . .

. . .4 step. . .

. . . 5 step. . .

Izuku closed his eyes as he fell. . .

Hoping that when he open them. . .

He would be dead. . .

'. . . Please. . . Let me die. . . Please! I want to die!'
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'all shigaraki has to do is not tell shinso what happened, even he could do that. . . right? . . . oh we're so fucked. . .'

"What in the world- OH SHI-"

Izuku looked up suddenly, but before he could see anything, Tsukauchi swerved the car, trying to avoid hitting something, only for the car to hit a street light

Izuku's ears rang as his eyes darted back and forth, his vision blurry, he looked in front of him to see Tsukauchi and his boss, both passed out and leaned against the air bags, he then looked over at kaminari, who was laid against the boss's seat, also passed out

Izuku began to breath heavily as he quickly unbuckled his seatbelt and open the car door, falling to the ground as his legs gave up on him

As izuku struggled to catch his breath, he inhaled sharply before hacking up black blood, feeling it clogging his throat

"Damn it-! Not again! Fuck! Not agai-"

Izuku was cut off as he was suddenly brought to the ground, a man wearing a dark hoodie, held izuku down with one hand, and held a knife in the other

"Izuku midoriya~ my my you look cuter in person~ if only you were more important to the purple haired fag~ then I would have had the pleasure of using your body instead of the tranny~"

As the man spoke, he brought the knife down against izuku's neck, it wasn't enough to cut, but it burned the skin, making izuku scream out in pain

"Its amazing what holy water does to a ghost isn't it~?"

The man then raised the knife and brought it back down, stabbing izuku's shoulder, "AHHHH!!! AH- HAH- AHHH!!!"

"Hahaha!!! Oh the irony~ years of trying to kill yourself~ yet you never realized~ the only way to kill a ghost, is with holy water~ heheh~ NOW DIE!!!"

time seemed to slow for izuku, who laid in shock at what he had heard. . .

All this time. . .

It was holy water. . .?

I've jumped off buildings. . .

I've drowned myself. . .

Cut my wrists until I was in a pool of my own blood. . .

Overdosed on any drugs I could get my hands on. . .

And this entire time. . .

All I had to do. . .

Was use holy water?

But. . .

Why is it. . .

That I'm scared?

I'm afraid that I. . .

Am actually going to die?

I. . .

For so long I have wanted to die. . .

But now. . .

I want to survive. . .

. . . Please. . . Don't let me die. . . Please! I don't want to die!

*BANG*