After several great weeks, Jillian and I have become best friends. That's the only person I'll talk to. Jillian still talks to other students but she's the only one I can trust, so I only talk to her. As we were sitting in lunch I had said, "Jillian my mom is taking me to Disneyland for my birthday next weekend, and she said I could bring one friend, would you like to go with me?" "Of course!" Jillian had screamed. She asked a bunch of questions like how would we pay for airplane tickets, and about our hotel, and when we would come back. It wasn't easy for us to just drive down to California because we live in North Carolina and driving across the country would be a very long drive so instead we just fly. By the end of lunch I had pretty much answered all her questions. I left the room and walked to 4th period. On my way I saw a guy named Jayden. He was my height with dark brown hair and brown eyes. He wore a striped shirt with dark jeans and blue sneakers. For the first time in my life I had approached someone myself. I walked over and said "Hi my name is Lily." My name is Jayden I just moved here from Florida" he said. I said "Cool. Do you want to sit with me and my friend Jillian at lunch tomorrow?" "Sure. That would be cool" he replied. So I walked to 4th period excited that I had a new friend.
Later that day I was on the bus with Jillian I told her about Jayden. She was happy for me because I had approached him my self and made a new friend. And then she said that she couldn't wait to meet him at lunch tomorrow.
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At lunch the next day I sat down at the table in the corner because the dirty table was occupied by "the others". I saw Jayden trying to look for me, I waved my hands like a maniac trying to call him over. He finally saw me and smiled he walked over to the table and sat down. We talked for awhile when I saw Jillian. I waved to her to come sit down with us. She came and sat down. I had introduced her to Jayden. Jillian immediately started talking abruptly. As I kept hearing the words flow out of her mouth I started to wonder "does she like Jayden????" I had a plan to ask her on the bus later that day.
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On the bus I sat in the very last seat in the very back. I called her over to sit next to me. but then realized that Jayden took our bus. He sat right next to us both. Jillian started to talk about sports. Which was weird because Jillian hated sports, but Jayden loved sports. I had a feeling that she was trying to flirt with him by sharing interests. Even if their fake interests. As she talked I just looked out the window until the bus had come to a stop. I got off the bus with Jayden. Jayden moved into the house across from mine. As we walked home down the long narrow road, I had asked him what he felt about Jillian. He had responded saying " I think she's really nice and funny. I kind of like her a little bit" I gasped in shock. And for some weird reason I had bolted to my house crying. I honestly don't know exactly why I reacted that way. I hope I haven't developed any feelings towards Jayden. As soon as I got home I called Jillian on my phone.
"Hello, Jillian I have a question to ask you"
"Yes..."
"Do you like Jayden?"
"Yes just a little bit"
"Okay..."
I hung up.
I don't know why I was acting that way, I guess I'm just jealous. I pulled out my journal and started to write.
"Dear journal,
I think I might be developing some feelings toward Jayden. I guess I'm a little jealous that he kind of likes Jillian. And the worst part is, is that Jillian likes him back. I'm confused. I think I might like Jayden.
Sincerely, Lily"
I lay in my bed. I thought about stuff like if I would tell him, or if I should tell Jillian. I would never want to hurt Jillian. And I wonder if I did say something then it would ruin our friendship. I just hope that everything will be fine when we go to Disneyland. Oh! I forgot to say that we had to move our flight to next weekend and I can take Jayden too. I just hope I don't have any more weird feelings towards him. I had fallen asleep but still dreamt about my thoughts.
