As I thought that things had died down, it didn't. I still talked to Jayden and Jillian. But I couldn't talk to them when they were together because they just broke up. I was glad that drama had kind of died down but this whole school drama is driving me crazy. I would speak up, but I'm to shy to say something in front of the school.
I sat down in the cafeteria to eat my lunch. I sat next to Jayden and Jillian. I guess their back to being friends again. I ate my sandwich quietly while I listened to conversations about me. Then, out of the blue, Jillian stands up, out of her seat. She said with a strong demanding confident voice "leave Lily alone!! What did she ever do to you? She deserves better! All she did was like one boy and now it's the talk of the school! I bet you all have crushes and is really shy to approach them, but Lily did that, that really shy girl went up to her crush that day. She doesn't deserve this she deserves better!" Then Jillian sat down and finished eating her food. After her little announcement, I didn't hear anymore things said about me in school. I feel great! But I didn't know what to do about Jayden.
That night, I paced around my room, thinking if I shouldn't like Jayden that way, or I should like Jayden that way. I had no clue what I was going to do. I wrote a journal entry that night;
"Dear journal,
Today was great! Jillian stood up for me at lunch time and now things are all better. The only problem is, is that I don't know if I should still like Jayden or not. Because it caused so much drama when I told Jillian about my crush so maybe it's best that I don't like him.
Sincerely,
Confused Lily"
I fell asleep that night with thoughts inside my head instead of dreams.
The next day I woke up and checked my phone for messages. The only messages I got were from Jillian. I didn't answer any of them. I just put down my phone and got ready for school. As soon as I was done getting ready I ran to school. I didn't ride the bus, my mom didn't drive me, I ran. As soon as I got there I saw Jayden. I had to talk to him.
Our conversation;
"Hi Jayden"
"...hey"
"I need to tell you something"
"Yes?"
"I don't have a crush on you anymore. A matter of fact, I don't have a crush on anyone right now. But I just wanted to tell you that."
I left before he could respond. I didn't want to hear what he had to say. I walked to Study Hall and just sat quietly. I was early so I just thought about stuff. When the bell rang, time had seemed to have passed so quickly, it had passed so quickly that now it was lunch. I dreaded going to lunch. I sat by the garbage can. In the distance I saw Jillian sitting by the populars, and Jayden staring at me. Once I spotted him, he turned away and sat next to the jocks. I had felt so unwanted today. I felt as if no one needed me to be their friend anymore. After that for the next 4 months I walked the hallways quietly not speaking to anyone. I became shy again. I felt as if everyone was weird. I felt as if everyone was rude, and I felt as if everyone was a trader. Even though Jillian had stood up for me at lunch it made her more popular, she got tons of new friends which left me stranded.
