A week had passed by, and it was Thursday. The day before I left for Disneyland with my two best friends Jayden and Jillian. So I had finally decided that I liked Jayden. I knew it wasn't fair to Jillian because she liked him. But I couldn't hide my feelings any longer. I walked over to Jayden when I saw him at his locker. I said "I have something important to tell you" he replied with excitement, "I have something to tell you! I'm going to ask Jillian to be my girlfriend before we get on the plane tomorrow!"
I just left without a trace.
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That night I sobbed in my room. I didn't even want to write in my journal. But I still managed to write in it.
"Dear journal,
I like Jayden. He likes Jillian. Jillian likes him. They might start dating tomorrow.
Sincerely, jealous Lily"
After that I pretty much just wanted to pack everything for Disneyland. I should've just told Jayden I liked him instead of crying all the way to the nurse and lied about me getting punched into the stomach by my locker. Now he thinks I'm a weirdo for running away crying like 2 times. He probably thinks I like him. Which I do. But I don't want him to know unless he hears it from me. I had fallen to sleep with my phone in my hand and journal under my pillow.
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The next morning I put my suitcase in the car and held my backpack. My mom and I drove to Jayden's house and then to Jillian's. We all talked about what we wanted to do at Disneyland. And the time had passed so fast that we were now about to board our flight. My mom had gone to the bathroom while we waited at the gate. Then Jayden spilled out the words, "will you be my girlfriend?" And all you here is Jillian screaming, jumping up and down like he had just proposed to her. My heart dropped. I knew that was going to happen. I just wasn't ready for it to happen. I just wished it was me. The first boy I'd ever liked. The first person I've ever approached. I wished he knew those things then he might've changed his mind. On the plane, of course Jayden sat in the middle of the 3 seats. He talked to Jillian about what she liked to do, her hobbies, sports, homework,etc. I listened to music. Music flowed through my ear and made me take my mind off of things. I glanced over at them and noticed that Jayden had his arm around Jillian, looking out the window! Her head was leaned on his shoulder. I just wanted to jump out of the plane. I felt confused, hurt, and sad. My shyness had come back I didn't talk to them until we actually got into our hotel room. We had our own room while mom had another. Our room was really nice. We had three beds, a sofa, a bathroom, two TVs, and a refrigerator. I put on my swimsuit so we could go to the pool. I waited for them to put on their swimsuits. When they were done changing, we walked down to the pool. We decided to play Marco Polo. I was starting to have fun. But then they both wanted to go in the hot tub so they ditched me in the pool and left to the hot tub. I just swam a couple laps. Then I got out of the pool and then dried myself off and walked to the hot tub. As soon as we were done at the pool, we walked up to the room to change and then we walked down to the lobby to get some food. We walked into the restaurant in the lobby and ate. I ordered a salad, Jillian ordered chicken, and Jayden ordered a cheeseburger. While we were waiting for our food to come, we were entertained by the musicians who did jazz songs which was very soothing. We started to talk about school and sports for awhile. Then our food came. As we were eating Jayden had to go to the bathroom. As he walked to the bathroom, I had made the decision to tell Jillian about my crush, I simply said this;
"Jillian... I have something to tell you..."
"Yes?"
"I have a crush on someone..."
"Really?! Who???"
"...Jayden..."
She stormed off back up to the hotel room. When Jayden got back he asked where Jillian was. I blushed and said "I don't know" we just sat down and ate the rest of our food. We talked and talked. It might've been the most engaging conversation I've ever had. We talked about hockey and the NBA finals. We also talked about our favorite TV shows and movies. I figured out that we have a lot in common. He started to talk about what social media he had, but I don't have any social media. So when we walked back up to the hotel room Jillian was sitting on the couch watching tv, and of course Jayden walked over to comfort her. I grabbed my phone and started to download Instagram. I followed Jayden and Jillian, I followed my family members who had it, I followed kids from elementary school that I kind of knew, I also followed people I sort of knew in middle school, and I followed people in our high school. By that time I had 200 followers. I felt stupid because Jayden had 687 followers and Jillian had 425 followers. I posted a selfie of me but I didn't think it was that good because I've never taken one before. I showed Jayden my account and he gave it a thumbs up. That night I felt a connection with Jayden, but I was afraid that Jillian would interfere with my friendship with Jayden.
Before I went to sleep I wrote in my journal.
"Dear journal,
Today was a productive day. Jillian got her first boyfriend. Who was my crush. I also think Jillian is mad at me for liking Jayden but she shouldn't be because he likes her... But anyways, I had the longest engaging conversation ever, and it was with Jayden! Plus I feel as if I had a connection with him today. I also got Instagram! But overall I think today has been a weird but awesome day!
Sincerely,
sort of happy Lily
P.S. This has been my longest entry"
I fell asleep on my bed with my journal in my hand and my phone under my pillow.
