{you make me feel like
A fool, waiting for you.}
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Ellie.
Todays the day I got to Seattle,
Alone and without a plan, I know it probably sounds stupid but I don't care, I'm going to find them and kill them simple as that.
I haven't told anyone, partly because I don't want to see the look on there faces when I tell them, and the other part because I don't want anyone stoping me.
I have to do this.
It's been three weeks since Quinn arrived, I want to grow closer to her but ever since the night she convinced me to sleep in my bed with her i've grown distant.
not because I didn't enjoy it, frankly I loved Watching her sleep with her head on my chest,
how peaceful she looked, knowing that I could protect her at all cost as long as she was with me.
But because I was terrified to get close to her right now, I just lost my best friend and the only father figure I ever had, and Im not trying to let her see what i'm going to do and lose her to.
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I walk up to Joel's house but stop as soon as I reached the door, mostly because I was unable to open it due to my hands shaking so bad.
I finally bring myself to open it, slowly turning the nob and watching the old door open.
I step in and make my way up the steps, whipping the dust off the railing as I walk up.
I make my way to the hall way, looking at the jackets that hang from above,
they hang on metal brass hangers, all in a row.
I make my way to the one in the middle, picking up the sleeve and brining it to my nose, taking a long inhale of the scent I missed so much.
I quickly wipe
a stay tear from my cheek, making my way into his bedroom and picking up a box from underneath his bed.
I place it on the bed, opening it to reveal a gun and a small watch with broken glass.
"Hey Ellie, can you come down here really quick?"
I hear Quinn's voice from downstairs, completely puzzled because she didn't know I was here,
"Yeah, is everything okay?" I holler back down, Slipping the watch into my back pocket and putting the gun in my gun holster.
I make my way downstairs to see Quinn sitting at the dining room table, with Maria standing in front of her pacing back and forth with a small piece of paper in her hands.
"Hey..." I say, concern trailing through my voice.
"Sit." Maria says, pointing at a chair and stopping dead in her tracks to face me.
She clears her throat and begins reading the paper in her hands
"Maria i'm heading to Seattle, I wish I could let it go but I can't," She begins, pacing around once more,
"I have to bring these people to Justice, Ellie's going to try to come after me but stop her."
She takes a deep breath before continuing again,
"Take the guns, Lock up the horses, maybe lock her up. Buy me some time so I can end this, Love you always, Tommy."
She stops reading and slams the paper down onto the table,
"He's going to get himself killed." She says, anger taking over her voice.
"He should've let me go with him, You should've gave us a group to go after those fuckers!" I yell at the end of my sentence, Causing Maria to step back a bit.
"Are you going to try and stop me?" I add, speaking in a sarcastic tone.
"I'd prefer you'd stay," She begins, Im soon to interrupt her, "that's not happening."
"I'd prefer you'd stay, but I know you better." She adds,
"You're going with her." She says, pointing a finger at Quinn,
"No she's not! It's not safe out there." I reply,
"She knows the place Ellie!"
We continued to argue before Quinn finally convinced me to let her go, I think she was just tired of hearing me and Maria argue.
I didn't want her to go, She's already been involved with these people and it fucked her up bad enough, I don't want to risk losing her.
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Quinn.
As we leave the gates of Jackson, I start to worry about us, we have no plan, very little food to last , and very little water.
But we're also just two girls, two girls that are going to get tired and sick, and we're gonna be gone for god knows how long.
Ellie's focused on this though, and at least she's not going alone.
It'll take around six weeks to make it to Seattle, six long and exhausting weeks.
Plus at this rate it's going to be horrible, Ellie has barely talked to me since the night she held me through my nightmares, she hasn't tried to start a conversation once.
Part of me wants to ask about Joel, maybe try and get it off her chest, but I know it's not my place, even if it was I don't think she'd want to talk about it with me, she'd probably want to talk to someone she actually cared about.
And that sure as hell isn't me.
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We find a small place to sit up camp, it's a little cave like thing in the side of this big ass mountain, Ellie made a fire whilst I got the sleeping bags out and laid them in a good spot, not to far away from the fire but not to close either.
Id be lying if I said I didn't try to put them close on purpose.
"I'll keep watch, get some sleep." I hear Ellie
say, I want to argue and tell her to sleep but I know it won't do any good with her, arguing with her is like talking to a brick wall.
So instead of arguing, I rolled over and went to sleep.
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