Ok first there's a few changes I changed the character Xavier from Tom Daley to Austin Carlile cause I love him and I changed Chad to Mike Fuentes then Michael to Tony perry cause I love pierce the veil so that's pretty much it ok so on to the story.
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It's been 5 months since my parents Died and I've become pretty heartless and dark. Me and Justin broke up cause he cheated on me I knew for a little but I kept my mouth shut and I just broke down then we broke up I've been doing my alpha duty's but I'm mostly listening to music like I am know.
"I never said, I'd be coming back for you.
I never said, I'd be coming back for you...
I never said that, I wish....
I wish that you could see, feel something or just believe,
But you're not here you're way past dead, your heart, it's doesn't bleed.
You took a part of me, ripped from my very soul.
Now I feel like giving up when you're losing control.
And, I fear that I've married a ghost, you appeared to have this heart of gold, and I fear, that you've sold my soul.
The devils crawling on my back to take you...
Disguised your demons drag you straight to...
Lying, cheating, you think I don't know what you did?
Have many long to breathe, the dead are listening, buried you with my faith, these few last words regret to say.
Can't do this on my own, I can't be all alone, I've held my tongue for far too long this silence kills me...
And, I fear that I've married a ghost, you appeared to have this heart of gold, and I fear, that you've sold my soul.
The devils crawling on my back to take you...
I never said, I'd be coming back for you.
I never said, I'd be coming back for you...
And now I sing, for everything that I've lost.
And now I scream for everything that I've loved...
Everything...
And now we sing (we sing) for everything that we've lost and now we scream (we scream) for everything that we've loved...
We left our voices scream, we left our...
And now your demons have found you, and now like shadows surround you, and now these demons have bound you, and they're dragging you back to hell."
It's called the storm by of mice and men I fucking love that band this song is to Justin cause I hate him with a burning passion I don't talk to anyone. Unless I have to if I share a secret you can't tell anyone I've been cutting and starving I can't bring myself to stop it feels right. If your wondering I didn't kill Xavier's girlfriend I just almost killed her my brothers held me of till I just ran away boo they should of just let me kill the whore yup their still dating. I don't really go down stairs so I don't see them anyway so it's ok.
*knock knock*
"Come in" I whispered but I knew they heard me
I saw my brother gabe walk in
"Twin I miss you Barbra misses you everyone misses you please come down stairs and join civilization listening to that music and depressing your self is bad for you oh and I got your warped tour tickets and the meet & greet tickets for all the Bands you wanted" gabe said softly
I ignored him but I was happy I was meeting kellin Quinn he's been my celebrity crush forever :D
He sighed after he found out he wasn't getting any where. He slowly walked to the door and whispered " I just want my sister back please" then walked out.
I've been writhing a song actually I've wrote 4 already but this is the only one I've been having trouble with so far it goes.
"There must be something I could say
And if I never wake again
Remember me just as I'm breathing before you
The same as all along
I'll hold you from sorrow
It's better off this way and
If I die tomorrow
What of me follows you forever
Unforgiven sins
And all that lies beneath my skin
And all these things I never told you"
I've been on that for 2 days ugh and it gets me angry I've been singing out loud with our realizing it and my brothers have been coming and tell me how good I am while I just feel useless 😔.
I decided to just go out and see my pack I haven't seen them in like 2 weeks. That's really bad I got up and made my self presentable I put some skinny jeans on with an Of mice and men shirt with some vans. I did my make-up kind of dark then put my brown hair in a pony tail I dyed my hair brown what can I say I look alot different I also got my nose pierced and a tattoo. I took a break from modeling so it's whatever not like anyone cares I walked down the stairs of course you hear Xavier's cocky mouth .
"Holy shit you actually came down" he practically screamed
Xavier has been trying to cheer me up he can feel my hurt. He doesn't really try and rub his girlfriend in my face he actually kind of ignores her when Im around. He ran and lifted me up and hugged me.
"Have you been eating? Your like a fucking feather so damn light!" He whispered
Xavier being Xavier dragged me into a corner then basically forced my shirt up. He could see my bones pretty clearly he looked at me "FUCK" he whispered screamed I looked down at my feet. I felt Xavier's soft hand on my chin and he made me look at him WTF he was crying see Xavier knows I cut he could feel me doing it and he bursts in once then held me the rest of the night. "Please eat I beg you please just I really need you to live please" he said sadly then kissed me I didn't kiss back at first cause I was surprised but then I did. It lasted about a minute then he pulled away and walked away. What are you serious Xavier has been weird the last couple of months like really nice to me I just don't know it's weird.
I ran upstairs and just blasted my music while sitting down in a corner crying and cutting. I'm fucked in the mind.
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So yea you didn't expect that did you. This isn't encouraging people to hurt them selfs and it's not a joke. - Autumn
