(Xavier p.o.v)
hey guys well you guys obviously know i'm jazzy's mate well yeah when i rejected here that day it killed me the only reason I rejected her was because I didn't wanna
hurt her. You guys can tell i'm an ass sometimes i get drunk an out of control and just fuck random girls who am i kidding i do that a lot and i don't wanna hurt her and
cheat on her i think it would hurt me more then it would hurt her i really do love her she's just so beautiful but she's with Vic that's why i kept my distance he deserves
her more then i do i believe he can treat her better then i can she doesn't know how i feel about her Ive been trying to give her hints but she just doesn't pick up on
them and that's okay cause its not her fault.I'm a complete ass face i felt sick to my stomach when i wrote that note but what can i do its all done and said somewhere
in the back of my mind i have hope that we can be together but i doubt that's ever gonna happen but its my fault that's why I'm a big hypocrite since i always tell jazz
not to cut when i do my self yup I'm a boy self harmer Ive actually tried to kill my self 9 times some how i survive everyone in the pack knows but jazzy and i begged
them to not tell her i would break if they told her will you keep my secret? i don't want anyone to judge me i believe all the hate i get and the negative things that
are said to me. That's why i look the way i look and act the way i do my mom died when i was 17 I'm 21 now its been really hard on me but what can i do. she died from a
heart disease that's hereditary which i got my brother didn't but i did. I had to get a surgery where they actually took my whole heart out and put it on ice it was sick!
i was actually dead but i love life i realized how precious life was i wouldn't trade it for anything so I'm telling you right now don't give up i have stopped suicide
attempts after that realize that death is a permanent solution to a temporary problem i mean i still self harm but i don't plan on taking my own life any time soon and if
you need to talk to me cause your feeling low just talk cause ill try to make you smile.One day i dream to be famous i can sing and scream so i mean i can be in a band '
i got the looks too with my bunch of tattoo's and my nose ring I'm not bad looking at all. i honestly wanna break up with that annoying bitch i honestly forgot her name
shes so annoying she thinks she so sexy when she looks like a fat orange with too much make up and shes not even good in bed jazzy was the best I've ever had and I'm not
just saying that cause shes my mate. shes just so fucking good and tight shit I'm getting to carr-
"Xavier..?" i was dragged out of my thoughts by jazzy
"oh hey jazzy sorry i was thinking"
"its okay um this is kind of embarrassing but i missed you...a lot" she blushed
"ha ha i missed you too jazz sorry I've just been busy"
"oh its okay are you busy now?"
"no I'm actually quite bored"
"do you wanna go out on a ...um date"
i kind of stared at her in disbelief i was so happy
"oh um sorry i forgot you had a girlfriend that's my fault I'm sorry ill just go" she went running
"no no i was just surprised i would love to go on a date with you" i grabbed her by her waist
"oh okay well i have to get ready"
"yeah me too ill see you in 30?"
"yeah that's good" and with that she walked away
"YESSSS" i screamed out
(jazzy's p.o.v)
i don't know what was up with me today i just really missed Xavier so i asked him out on a date i was so nervous then he said yes and it felt like the world was lifted
off my shoulders i was finally done getting ready. i have a white tank top on with a red,blue,and white plaid tee shirt over it with some black short shorts and black
Lacie leggings that has flowers sticthed in. I had my rocker boots on with dark make up and my purple hair straightened.
*ding* *ding* *ding*
"coming"i yelled nervously
