Poetry

As A...

Trigger Warnings:
-mental health, rape, molestation, forcible sexual penetration, bulling, suicide, suicidal thoughts, child neglect, parent issues, body shaming, mention of death attempts, attachment issues, mention of sexuality, cursing, mention of panic attacks, based on RL events
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As a female who is young

As a young female that is Bohemian-American

As a person who is titled as 'ESE' but is not

As a person who knows what it's like to be bullied every single day

As a person who is always been overlooked

As a person who always overthinking

As a person who has been abused of all types

As a person who has 'mommy' issues

As a person who has tried to commit suicide multiple times

As a person who has cried herself to sleep

As a person who has been taken advantage of

As a person who has been kidnapped

As a person who has been through forcible sexual penetration.

As a person who was raped

As a person who has been molested

As a person who always feels like she's a burden to everyone

As a person who is scared to love

As a person who has felt worthless

As a person who has to constantly listen to music on high to stop the screaming of her mother and older sister fighting

As a person who has been through a lot

As a person who wishes for respect

As a person who was body shamed by almost everyone she knew

As a person who almost died multiple times at a VERY young age

As a person who has attachment issues

As a person who used to wised to stop living because she thought it would be better then living and would make people happy that she was finally out of their hair

As a person who is Bisexual

As a person who has panic attacks

As a person who has a voice that wishes to be heard

Notice how I say 'As a...'

Reason being is because I was never seen as a person in people's eyes

I was seen as a puppet with strings that were constantly being pulled

Seen as a Robot needing to be reprogrammed into something they wanted or needed

Seen as someone's personal little slave

As a person who has lived parts of your pain

As a person, I understand

As a person, I know how it feels

I know the unbearable fire burning throughout your body that you wish you could put out but it's too large too

I know that feeling of wanting one person, JUST ONE! to see the pain in your soul through your bullshit when you say that #1 thing EVERY female says "I'm fine" knowing damn well that you're not. That your over the absolute edge of that damn cliff.

Or

For that one person just to rescue you from that burning fire that someone else started.

For that person to just scoop you up and hug you until every drop of pain that was in your body is drained out

But I'm here to say that I will be your one person.

I will and I am your one person

-Keara Knowles
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