Evil touch - Tom Kaulitz

The list that held the future.

- Tom's POV -

I sat up after being awaken by the sound of crying?
I knew it wasn't Aurelia as she was still sleeping soundly beside me.
Bill.
I got up quickly and quietly crept towards his door.
I heard sniffling from inside, i felt so bad. I used to hate it when my brother would cry, to the point where I would cry with him.

- TOMS FLASHBACK - / 12 years old /

"Why can't either of you help?!" My mum screamed and threw items across the room, the sound of glass shattering silenced the room.

"Muma I'm sor-" Bill was cut off by her slapping him.

"What have I told you about keeping your mouth shut?!" She grabbed him by his hair and pulled him out of the room.

"Get off him!" I yelled and ran after her, tears fell from my eyes.

I followed them down the basement and heard a thump around the corner. I look to see Bill curled up on the floor.

"You can both stay down here. It's not like i care." She hiccuped multiple times from the amount of alcohol she had consumed.

"Bill!?" I ran up to him and knelt down.

"It's going to be okay, i know it.. one day we can be famous! Our band, Devilish, will be known all over the world." I reassured him and smiled at the thought of leaving this place.

"And we can have lots of dogs too, too many to count." I continued.

He smiled back at me as I added to the list that held the future.

—

After about 2 hours of chatting we heard a loud thump from upstairs that made us both flinch.
I decided to be the braver twin and go check. I slowly climbed up the creaky staircase that led us out of the basement. I looked over my shoulder and saw Bill staring at me with glimmering eyes, and a worried expression. I opened the basement door and searched around cautiously. Our mother was passed out on the floor with a beer bottle in hand.
I took this as an opportunity. An opportunity I should've taken a long time ago.

"Bill!" I whispered.

He poked his head around the corner and immediately looked relieved i was okay.

"Come on we are leaving!" I whispered again, followed by his quiet steps up the staircase.

I ran over to the counter, where I saw our mothers beaten up wallet. The wallet held enough money for food so I took it and ran out the house with Bill.

—

We wandered the streets like lost puppies, we didn't get out of the house often so our surroundings were new and scary, but I wasn't going to worry Bill any further so I acted like I had known this area for years.

"Tom I'm really cold, and it's not safe here at night.." Bill shivered with his teeth chattering.

"I know.. maybe we can find an alley to sleep in?" I searched around helplessly. But no luck.

"What are you kids doing out here alone?" A man that looked like he was in his 40's asked us.

"We need a place to stay." I said and pushed Bill slightly behind me for his safety.

"I don't want you out here so you can come with me." He said and got closer.

"How do I know you won't hurt us..?" I ask him and step back.

"Kid it's your choice, but you might freeze knowing this temperature." He scoffed and began walking away.

"Wait! We will go." I said and prayed that he will treat us well.

— / 5 years later /

"Where is Gareth? He's been gone for ages now.." Bill asked me and I shrugged in response.

And just a few minutes after that short conversation he came bursting through the door, dripping with blood.

"Your-.. your not safe here.. g-" Gareth was cut off by a gunshot to the head.

My heart dropped, I wanted to fall to my knees and cry but I knew better than that. Suddenly I saw a dark figure approach the doorway Gareth laid beneath. I didn't know what to do in this situation but luckily my adrenaline got us out safely. We ran towards the back exit of the house and hid behind bushes until the cars outside had left.
Bill was a mess. He hated violence and even at the big age of 17, he never could stand it. But the fact he just saw someone we had trusted and known for 5 years, someone who saved us when we were at our lowest, die right in front of us, broke him.
It broke me too but I always had to keep an act on to comfort Bill, even if that meant I had to discard my own feelings. I don't even know if we would be here if it weren't for me always protecting the both of us.

We watched as the cars sped off into the darkness, and as soon as they were out of sight I ran to the jet black car. The fastest one we owned.
I saw Bill look back at the house before I drove off but what could I do? Risk going back? I wasn't that stupid.

I drive us to the nearest hotel for a few nights. Luckily the business Gareth owned kept us wealthy, so we had plenty of money to get us going.
And I knew that the Eagles were behind all of this. And they were after us.

- END OF FLASHBACK  -

God I get shivers when I think of that. But It's all over now, I just need to comfort Bill.

"Bill let me in." I tried sounding soft but my voice said otherwise.

I didn't hear a response so I opened the door myself and was hit with the strong scent of alcohol and cigarettes. He hated cigarettes so why the hell could I smell them?

"Bill?" I asked and saw his tall body standing on his balcony.

His room had empty cans and bottles of liquor all over the floor. His clothes and belongings were also scattered as if they were thrown.

"What do you want Tom.." He mumbled without turning to even face me.

"I know your upset but she is just a girl, take my advice and get over her." I said with a deep tone.

"You don't get it do you? I loved her.. and I really thought she loved me too. I want to find true love. But im not worthy of it, Im always getting used so what's the point?" He said before taking a hit of his cigarette, throwing his head back as the smoke enters his lungs.

I grabbed it out of his hand and stomped on it. He had never been a smoker and I wasn't planning on him being one.

"Bill you need to snap back to reality, not everyone will be right for you and one day you will find someone. That takes time, and you need to focus on your health for awhile alright?" I said and looked him in the eyes, the eyes that had counted on me for all these years.

He nodded and sighed, walking back inside and collapsing on his bed. I got to his door and closed it behind me.

I never thought I was capable of love, and if I told my younger self where I would be today he would of laughed straight in my face. But things change. Sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worst.

AUTHORS NOTE

// My idea for this chapter was to bring a bit more of a background to Bill and Tom's character, just know I have made up this idea and it isn't real. I wanted to bring awareness to a lot of things people go through daily and I have added many already into this book, abuse is one of them. LOVE YOU ALL STAY SAFE AND IF ANYTHING IS HAPPENING AT HOME IM ONLY A TEXT AWAY 💓 //

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