I love you

Chapter 1: Remus.

Sirius.
I am looking at Remus. He's studying and I'm bored, I want to do something fun! "Moonyyy?" I ask. "Hmm?" Remus doesn't look up from is work. "I'm bored." He looks up. "I'm studying Sirius, go annoy James please." I sight and Remus raises his eyebrow. "But I want to do something fun with you." I say while cuddling closer to Remus. He pushes me away. "Not now Sirius, I want to study, and you're not helping, it's going to take longer if you keep distracting me." He says. I stand up fast. "Well I'm going then." I say cold. Remus looks up. "Padfoot, you know that's not what I meant." He says, but I ignore him and go up to the dorm. I pick up my sketchbook and look at the sketches:

Remus Lupin reading a book.
Remus Lupin studying.
Remus Lupin laughing.
Remus Lupin eating.
Remus Lupin smoking.
Remus Lupin drinking tea.
Remus Lupin sleeping.
Remus Lupin crying.
Remus Lupin angry.
Remus Lupin in class.
Remus Lupin taking a walk.
Remus Lupin hiding.
Remus Lupin blushing.
Remus Lupin sick.
Remus Lupin in the hospital wing.
Remus Lupin after a full moon.
Chocolate.
A full moon.
Remus Lupin kissing Sirius black.
Remus Lupin naked.
A wolf.
A dog.
A book.

Everything I drew was about Remus. Who just let me down. And then, suddenly it hit me. Holy crap! I am in love with my best friend Moony! But that couldn't be true, I am straight. And Moony isn't even gay. Moony hates me he doesn't love me right? I am confused and put the sketchbook carefully away. No one knows I draw. Then suddenly I hear a knock on the door. "Padfoot? Can I come in?" Remus asks. "Okay." I say. Turning away from the door. "Heyy Padfoot. I am done with studying, and I wanted to check if you're alright." Remus says walking to me putting. A hand on my back. I shove it away. "What's up?" Remus asks. "Nothing, just leave me alone." I say. "But I'm bored." Remus tries to joke. "Yeah, now you are. Go annoy James or something. It's distracting and I'm thinking, It's going to take longer if you stay here." I say using Remus' words. "I deserved that one." Remus says laying a arm around my shoulders. It does feel good, but I put his arm away. "Don't touch me!" I snap. Remus looks surprised. "Okay, I'm sorry." Remus says careful. He stands up and walkes out of the dorm to diner. I get my stuff and go to the shack. I don't want to be around Remus for a long time. I left my sketchbook in the dorm because I don't want to think about him right now.