I love you

Chapter 6: Confessings.

Remus.
The past few weeks Sirius gave me just enough personal space. It was really nice and he became more himself. He still worked a bit harder then usual, but James said that I just am a good influence on him. He said it with a wink and I couldn't hide a blush.

And now today is my birthday, It's a bigger fuss than usual because it's our last year. Mostly Sirius was excited and he tried really hard to not tell me about the huge surprise party they had planned. (One Sunday morning the whole school not Slytherin of course received a letter except for me, Peter, James and Sirius.) I don't like party's much, but today I was in the mood for it. I got my gifts. From James I got his old broom, for later to travel. From Pete I got a book. From Lily I got a homemade scarf in yellow and red. Marlene and Mary gave me a record from ABBA. And Sirius had nothing for me. I saw him turned red. I was a bit disappointed, but I hide it pretty well. It was a Saturday, and hogshead weekend, so we went there. It was really fun. Sirius "suddenly" had to go. And the rest of us went back to the castle to eat. When I came upstairs with Sirius (the rest "had to go" too) and stepped into the common room everyone cheered, it was beautiful and I loved it. I didn't have to pretend to be surprised. I turned to Sirius and hugged him tight until he said: "Air." And I let him go a bit awkwardly. He smiled and we danced, I spoke to everyone and danced a lot until James said: "Maybe you should go to the dorm?" I wanted to ask why, but James gave me such a look, so I went upstairs. When I came into the dorm I saw a huge pile of chocolate frogs laying on my bed. There was a note too. It said: "Look for your gift." And I spread the frogs out until I found the brown book Sirius had once taken when James went to talk to him. I looked in it and saw the drawings. It was me. I was surprised. I looked beautiful. My scars looked really nice and I looked alive in the sketches. And then I came to the end. Me naked in the shack. Me and Sirius kissing. A shock went trough my body. Sirius had draw me. He had the same feelings. There was a note. It said: "Turn around." I turned around end there he stood. The love of my life. Sirius Orion Black. He blushed. "This is what I had to tell you, this is why I wouldn't let you in. I realised I was in love with you, and of course you don't feel the same, but I was forced by Prongs to tell you. I want to be around you all the time and I want to show you how beautiful you are and how much I care about you. I really love you. Not like how I love James and Peter, but way much more." Sirius said in a rush.
I smile. "I love you too." I say. Sirius looks at me his mouth is hanging open and he can't say a word. His mouth closes and opens again. "I love your drawings. Do you really see me that way?" I ask. Sirius face softens. "How could I not see you that way?" Sirius replays. "Well, I'm still a werewolf, a monster." I say looking down. "Don't you dare ever say that again. I love your scars, they mark what you've been trough. How strong you are, and that you're still standing. They've made you who you are right now. Every good and bad thing. I love you and I love the wolf. I love every single little thing about you. I really do think you're the most beautiful person I know. You can give me veritaserum if you want, because everything I say is true." Sirius says. I blush. "You do?" Sirius nods. "Remus, can we do something else instead of talking right now?" Sirius asks, I smile. "Of course, I'm dying to eat those chocolate frogs." I reply. Sirius laughs. "I could have seen that one coming. I want to give your real present first tho." Sirius says. I frown. "But this was my present right? You've bought me a lot of chocolate, for more then a year!" I say. But Sirius shakes his head. "I need to know if we're boyfriends now." Sirius says. "Duh, I've wanted this since third year!" I answer. "Okay, so Remus John Lupin, because I love you so much and it's the last year at Hogwarts I would like to ask you if you would except this beautiful key so we can live together in London after we finish school." My eyes grow wide when I take the key from him. "Yes, I would very much like that idea." I say. "Can we now do the other part? The not talking part?" Sirius asks. I grin. "Shameless, you're shameless." Sirius shuts me up with a kiss. And he says in my mouth: "Better get used to it, you're mine now." I laugh and kiss Sirius back.

Downstairs.

"Should I go check on them?" James asks. "No, better not, they will come down when they are ready." Lily says while giving James a kiss. Remus comes running down stairs with Sirius just behind him. "How dare you say that you selfish prick! I won't let you scold me. Watch out or I'll beat you up!" Remus screams. "Yeah, of course you will, you're a cruel nerd, and everyone think you're so nice, but the truth is you're not!" Sirius screams back. James runs to them. "Er, maybe not for here." He says. "Oh, no?" Sirius asks and suddenly grips Remus and kisses him with tongue and all. When they're done James mouth hangs open and Remus and Sirius are laughing. "We got you!" Sirius laughs. "What? Is Prongsie that surprised?" Remus asks. James goes to Lily and says very loudly. "I've created the devil!" Everyone laughs at that and Remus haves the best birthday ever.