I love you

Chapter 5: Having a good time.

Remus.
The next morning when I wake up Sirius is still in my bed. I smile. I do really love him. Since third year I've known I love him. He of course does not love me back in that way, he is as straight as hell. I know how to live with it now, and I don't mind it anymore. It's just something that will never happen. I stare at him now I've got the chance to.

The past few weeks were the happiest of my life. Sirius is almost always on my side. He keeps me company and cuddles with me. He doesn't date suddenly and he asks me to read him books or to help him study. We go to hogsmead together and after a full moon he is always with me. He works harder at school and became a bit more serious, and he is trying really hard to let me laugh. I really love him. And one day when he is playing with my hair. "Remus, I'm bisexual." He says, I open my eyes lazily. "Was that why?" I ask but Sirius shakes his head. "No, not exactly, it's a part of it but the rest I'm not ready to tell yet." He says. I nod. "Thanks for telling me then, must be hard, but I know how you feel." I say. Sirius smiles. "No, not fully how I feel, so please don't say that." He says. "Why not? Maybe I do understand how you feel." I say. I pull my head out of his lap and sit up straight. "Just so you know, you can tell me anything." I say while standing up and heading to the library.

Sirius.
James comes in the dorm and gives me a questioning look. "I told him I am bisexual. He took it really well, and asked me if that was about the you know thing. I said partly and he started saying he understood me, but I told him he didn't fully so if he could stop. He didn't understand and told me that I could tell him anything and then he ran off to the library." I tell James. "I'll go talk to him, see if he's okay." And James is gone.

Remus.
James is joining me in the library. "Hiya Moony. How are you?" He asks. "Well, Sirius probably told you a bit. And I can't stand it that he isn't telling me why he acts so weird lately. He studies James. He is making his homework. Sirius never makes his homework! He hangs around me like a dog. He wants to cuddle. He is taking care of me after a full moon. He gives me chocolate. He tries really hard to make me laugh. He is not dating anymore, and before all this he wouldn't less 5 minutes without a girlfriend. He is gone insane! Insane James!" I practically scream. Fast we're heading out of the library while James smirks. "Yeah, true, he just wants to take care of you." I shake my head. "I can't do a thing without Sirius around me. I knew he had a lack of personal space, but this is bad James. He is driving me crazy! I love him and all of that shit, but this is too much!" I say angry. "I'll talk to him, let's go to the dorm." James says. He takes Sirius away and Sirius takes a brown book with him as well. I've never seen it before, but I don't care.

Sirius.
I take my sketchbook with me to show to James. He looks a bit worried. "Okay Pads, we have to make some changes, because Remus needs a bit of personal space. Let him study alone, and don't sleep in his bed every night. Give him the space he needs." James says. I nod and give him the sketchbook. He looks trough it. "Merlin's beard, I didn't know you could draw. And that you was that much in love with him." James says. I blush. "I have a plan, James." I whisper it in James ear. He nods. "That's a pretty good plan. I will help you." James says.