T h e p a i n o f r e c a l l i n g m e m o r i e s t h a t n e v e r e x i s t e d
Do you know the feeling?
Events that never happend, feelings that were never felt, words that were never said
But it all feels real - but in a distant, blurry memory
Sitting by the window, watching the rain with a mug of steaming tea in my hand, thinking about all the choices that led me here to this moment, right now. Thinking about all the different paths I could've taken, and where those would've led me, who they would've let me to. A thread of life that feels so tangible, it could've almost been reality. Perhaps in another life...
And what of all those things that did happen, that don't feel real? As if I just watched someone else live those experiences? I don't feel connected to my real life, I'm so in touch with recalling memories that never existed.
And then
I hear footsteps coming down the stairs
and it all passes
'Did you sleep well?'
'Yes, I did, thank you, did you?'
And I go back to the rhythms of my daily life.
Finished 22-09-2023
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