The sun blinds me,
Darkness
that once consumed me,
comes into existence,
hoping to finally find the light,
To hopefully breathe again my
life restarted.
I was once a void left
with nothing.
The cup that was filled
Tho
I have no longer.
I thought
I could hold.
Be refilled only to
Crack.
I crumbled,
and crumbled
until I was no more
than a stone.
I was not smooth
the rough edges,
breaking, and
Breaking.
As if though the world
was breaking me down
with a hammer on
It's a back view.
As though I wore
nothing more
than the rock itself
The hollowness inside
Made it into a cavern.
The bland life without
its light to me.
I am the darkness
within my soul to rise
as the light happens
to Get
snuffed out.
The darkness
that was
brought to life again.
I thought that
if I could live,
maybe I was alright to breathe.
But I would have no air.
Intoxicated by the carbon dioxide
making the
Light fades in and
out the oxygen barely getting in.
I thought that life
was not warm,
but a game of chasing.
Here for those who would've
Been the right ones.
To be in these
moments were my heart
would have been again,
breathing out the air,
and continued to
suffocate to swallow
a whole.
I view my life
from right now.
From what I have seen
in the past.
I was constantly breaking
pieces that were blinded in the
gleaming light.
As I was taking all the blame of
all my friends
and family
happiness.
I had to give everyone
what they needed,
but I was never truly
enough to give
and give,
but all I received
was hurt, pain
and backlash.
I continue to do
what I thought was right
to give what I thought
could be right.
Thou in the
end of the road,
it was more
but a roadblock.
In my sight all that
I had given.
I had lost myself.
There was no love.
There was nothing left,
I was nothing more than
Dessert left with
no water, parched dry
and suffocating me
as a can hardly breathe
but something happened.
A change was
given a chance to be reborn.
I decided to act
on the will
that was given
to me.
To be who I choose to
be.
Not to be what
others may think of me as I
decided to change.
The rules change the way
the world had worked.
In a way in which I
worked to changing,
what was wrong.
Discovering
I found myself
past discovery,
That had once clammed my life
before being me.
But now I seem to
choose to live a life
without you.
It is not on purpose,
but it is with fact
that you do not need me.
You rever more stronger
than what I
could've ever have been.
do I wish for what was
lost? Or do I grow?
That is the true
question I find
myself here.
Writing this poem,
giving thoughts
into words
That once
bothered me.
I continue to
live life but
now not felting
But with full meaning.
Some may call
me the romantic,
prophesies
on dreams and
A big fool all at once.
But that is not what
I seek I am no more
but a truth that
has been given
the light.
The door
cracks off the broken frames
no longer matter.
Its so bright that
I continue to seek
it in spite.
I go through
the door of life
no longer scared,
no longer fearful,
no longer desperate,
no longer wasteful,
no longer desire,
that destroys the heart.
All I do is breathe
the air that once consumed
my every thought.
Now that has long
left allowing
me to breathe clarity.
Tho It does
not worry me Now.
I suppose this isn't
what I was supposed
to say.
So I'll say
that these are supposed
to be lovely in the way.
what does that matter?
What does it truly mean?
What was my life sent out to be?
I figured out my life
An what was,
Was meant to be.
