The reality,
The reason,
The trust.
Taking time in
As of now I finally am
At the speed of time itself.
I began to wonder about my life
Purpose and worth.
A journey some
may have never seen
But a life that is worth living finally.
Time had first
gone too fast
At that point,
I thought
I wouldn't last.
I dragged my feet behind me as
I used my mind to guide me.
My heart fought
battles only warriors
Could speak. My heart fought
Battles only for dead ears to
Speak.
A life full of
unfulfillment and
Constant
requirement left a whole
And infested
pain left inside.
The void was
filled with things
That could mask
what was inside?
The perfect the
thoughts began to grow,
The loss of emotions
all set to stone.
No one could hear,
No one could see,
For it, the oldest job to be the
Best in keep.
Must look perfect,
Must envision the
Correct behaviour.
For if not you are
no more a coward.
You must
be a person for you
Must at all.
Because if you do
you'll doom us all.
Keep a pretty
face and shut
It's up all tight
Till one day you cant
Put up a fight.
Grow weak,
then strong,
Keep getting,
pushed around.
Living a life
full of others
Fulfillments.
Living in the
shadow of
what everyone
Wants from inside.
But do not
frown do not
Change what
you do they will
See the fake.
You will keep it up,
No doubt for sure.
Cause no one
wants to hear
You anymore.
Time has passed
and life has changed.
And one thing cracked
And break the frame.
Anger, loss
Failure and confusion.
There
was no life left
For fulfilment.
A forced
decision left
On me.
In that silence
Who else could it be?
I had no
rights to my body,
not my Own
I am a puppet
putting on a show.
But wires broke
and freedom came.
But the oppression
of love was a similar game.
I fought and
stood my ground
and learned
to love and
broke apart
when it wasn't
the right one.
I broke and
broke and
gave my soul
repairing it up
as I went then
finally, it stopped
for one small moment
I met you
and my heart was stolen.
It beat it
throbbed and
began living life
As if it were a god
It began to speak
It began to shout
It's wanted its
words to be heard out
It was locked away
For I did not know
how to open it.
That day it faded
in and out.
Breaking and crying
A void be placed when
I was dying.
My heart
had faded
I thought for sure.
But this last
Time'm not quite
Sure it beats again
revived again.
Maybe this time
I can finally have
Someone who
I can love again.
Walls will crumb
Barriers will fade for
My four
walls will let you stay.
My door is
left openly scared
of the unknown.
I'm here alive and
I won't let go.
