30 days Writing Challenge

DAY 11: talk about your siblings

Me, the youngest I have 1 sister and 3 brothers. My sister is the first child and I could say the one I'm closest with as we are the only girls of the siblings, and we understand each other better I guess. 11 years of age gap, although I hate her when we were younger because she likes to tease me and now we are older, I get to get my revenge to her. But after few years of me being an adult, I get to listen to her stories and deep talk with her, she can talk with me any of her problems and concerns comfortably knowing I can understand her better and I will be there for her. 

She did said it was hard for her, as the first child and not being up to my parents expectations but she still tried her best to be a good child to my parents. She talked to me how my dad was disappointed with her of not continuing her study and decided to get married. It was hard for her to convince my dad of the man of her choice. But Alhamdulillah things are getting better for her, she has 2 beautiful kids now and I always pray for her happiness.

Then my other brothers. Not much to talk about my 2nd brother and the 4th. My 3rd brother. The calmest person on earth I have ever known, he don't give any care about what other people think of him, but never did we know, he carried such big pain in him. I don't know when it all started to fall down for him. Starting from him getting GERD in 2021. It was COVID-19 outbreak at that time, his child not yet turn 1 year old. He need to undergo surgery and maybe he was worried but don't want to tell anybody about his worries, moreover he was a very bright person. 

He always make us laugh, and such a dear to my parents. I could say, he's the most concern towards me out of my other brothers. He got stressed because of work and I could see that, as he was not as bright as he used to, although he was smiling, he was hiding something. Alhamdulillah the surgery went well but not my brother. His condition did get better after that, but it didn't last long. The next year, he resigned from his work and got offer from government. His condition went down and he got very thin. We are all concerned about him. Especially my mother, whom never missed to pray for him everyday.

I could read the worries on my parents face. Moreover it was lockdown phase, I was at home. Then, in 2022, the news we never expected to come and to had fell upon my brother. He got brain tumor. Yes, an egg-sized tumor was in his head. Allah the Almighty. My brother had it like we don't know since when. He did complaint of his eyesight getting blurry but we just thought it was because of him not eating enough, but it was because of the tumor! Poor him. We immediately raised funds for him to went through surgery as we have to send him to private hospital to have the operation immediately, as government hospital needs to wait for few weeks and my brother is in pain. He cannot even walk by himself to go to the toilet. 

My parents took care of his kid at that time, for his wife to handle him. I was at college at that time and only get to know his update through the phone. I skipped a class to go to KL to visit my brother after his surgery. Alhamdulillah I managed to hold my tears while visiting him. I feel like crying while typing this. He got staplers on his head. Allah. My healthy brother, warded in ICU. He was in sedated stated at the time, I got to feed him some porridge and he can eat. 

Alhamdulillah, now he's back to work although he can't eat proper portion, I pray the best for him. To be able to be there with his child until the she grows up. Inshaallah.