My Rockstar Girlfriend (Jenniex Female reader)

Ch.10 To Be Changed

(Mentions of rape and domestic abuse.
Toxic toxic toxic‼️)

To be loved is to be changed
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Y/n POV

I watched Jennie through the crack of the door while she fidgeted with the hem of her skirt. I was fully aware how creepy I looked but it was her safety that mattered more to me.

The minutes went by and I knew she had to be leaving soon, it was already 1am. I debated waking jisoo up but in order to do that I'd have to leave Jennie alone. I couldn't bare the thought of that. I knew with my luck once I'd come back she'd be gone.

I listened carefully to Jennie's quiet sobs and whimpers as she tried to catch her tears before they ruined her makeup. I watched as her fingers moved through her hair and she reapplied her lipstick over 10 times. Even in despair she still looked so perfect.

James was out of the room having to handle "business." Jisoo was asleep. The body guard was at the bar. It was just me and Jennie in a seemingly empty building. It didn't feel like that though. It never felt like it was just me and Jennie.

It more so felt like Jennie by herself and me worlds way from her. She was so blocked off mentally I couldn't even begin to try and understand what she was feeling but by the shakes in her hands and the quiver in her breath I knew she had to be scared.

What saddened me is not knowing if she'd done this before. It killed me to think there was ever a time she went through this without someone to stop her. Someone to tell her she was worth more than a quick fuck for cash she desperately needed.

My building confidence to go in there and confront her was depleted when she got a text notification from her phone. No one gets texts at 1am except for the wrong reasons...

I watch the way Jennie's eyes glow with tears as the light illuminates her face. Her face and lips were puffy and bits of hair stuck to her neck from tears rolling down them.

Her hands shook at little bit as she typed out a quick sentence letting out a mix between a sob and a cough. I backed away from the door a bit scrambling my brain with what to say when she would see me. Everything was so fast paced now.

Jennie grabbed her phone, fixed her hair and started walking out.

I almost considered running away completely just to avoid her.

I looked pathetic as I stood nervously against the wall. I could see the bits of annoyance and frustration in her eyes when she saw me as she left through the back door stopping in her tracks. Her face fell even more and her hands clenched to her phone even tighter. It hurt me. The way she would look at me every time she saw me. To think I was expecting her to pull me into some embracing hug.

It was always me that was an inconvenience:

"God y/n." Jennie whines, pinching the skin between her eye brows and rubbing her temples while I stood there awkwardly.

She finally looks up at me after wallowing in her own annoyance. She gives me a look like she's waiting for me to scold her, waiting for whatever bullshit excuse comes out of my mouth to get her to stay. Get her out of making a bad decision.

"I heard your conversation Jennie- your conversation earlier."

"I know you did. You really can't mind your own business can you?" She snapped.