My Rockstar Girlfriend (Jenniex Female reader)

Ch.6 Motel 6

(⚠️ This chapter includes heavy violent and abusive behavior and also mentions of sexual assault. None of it should be normalized or romanticized just because I'm writing about it).
Extra long chapter:)

You're a doll, you are flawless,
but I just can't wait for love to destroy us
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The last few hours of the plane ride was awkward between us which was mostly my fault. Jennie had this push and pull habit that often left me not knowing what to say. She would get close to you, tell you all the sweet things you want to hear, then you'd get into an argument 10 minutes later. You never know with her. That's what makes everything she does so unexpected.

I stayed silent after her little comment unsure of what to say or what she even wanted me to say. She stayed quiet not minding the silence especially because her Xanax was kicking it. Luckily for her she fell asleep a little while later while I stayed up and suffered in my own thoughts.

'The smiling, the stares, the trust....friends?'

I look at her sleeping so peacefully next to me looking like nothing in the world could ever get to her but then as my eyes drift to her legs and I see the scars that say other wise. Self harm scars, some older, some newer, some even cigarette burns, she hadn't been happy in a while.

I was new to this kind of stuff. I didn't grow up around violence or in an unstable house. I have strict parents but they love me. Jennie didn't have that. She was convinced that they wouldn't care if she lived or died. It scares me that I don't know how to handle Jennie or how to properly be there for her. I'm still trying to figure out what ticks her off, what triggers her. I haven't found it yet but I know I'm going to some day and it scares me not knowing what to do when that happens.

Jennie may have opened up to me but it's not in the way I wanted her to. She's very careful with the things she tells me. I hated that she had to put her guard up with me. I hate it.

My thoughts continue to swarm me as I wait for her to wake up which felt like hours and it was.

Before I knew it we were landing.

—

"Okay so this is your room." Jisoo gestures as we walk through the door. I almost audibly gasp at how beautiful it all was.

"We lucked out with Jennie's new investor. We we're able to get everyone good rooms. You should've seen the shit show the other hotel was. Don't get to comfy though, I doubt all the other hotels will be like this."

I nod while heading into the rather large bathroom. This place is legit.

"Ruby will be in 205 which is just down the hall. Tell us if you need anything but if you could leave Ruby to herself these next couple of days that would be great. She has a lot on her plate right now."

I nod.

"Yeah sure." I smile a bit sucking in a deep breath through my nose.

Jisoo let's out a sigh, her voice a little quieter now. "I'm serious y/n...I know what you did."

My smile drops a bit.

"The Xanax y/n. You gave her Xanax." She folds her arms distancing herself from me.

"How'd you-

"She told me. She thought it was sweet of you. She doesn't understand how bad it is for her y/n."

"Shit Jisoo I'm so sorry." She cuts me off