Finney Blake Oneshots

16- Harbour pt. 2

Finney POV

I lay on my bed, looking up at the ceiling, all I can think of is yn. I really hate this! I hate being away from her, I miss her with every heartbeat, I read her letter a week after I got here. I almost couldn't bring myself to do it. But after I read it, I read it over and over and over again.

I was such an idiot for not realising it before, and such an idiot for never telling her that I felt the same way. Now we're in different states and all I ever dream of, all I ever long for is to see her in person again. Just so I can tell her that I love her the way I do. But I can't, so the second best thing, a letter.

I reach out to my bedside table and grab a random notebook, then reach into my pocket and grab a pen. I let out a slow breath, just write, just write what you feel.

It's complicated, I've never really been that good with love, but I'll try.

I speak as I write it out,

"My Dearest, Yn

Hey yn, I hope you're doing well, I just wanted to say that I've read your letter. I swear it's probably one of the best things I have ever read in my entire life. It was as though nothing else was relevent in that moment. I should probably tell you, I feel the same way.

I just have this longing, I wish I could tell you this face to face, I wish I could see you again.

"You, yn are my one, the only, it's like the moon and the sun, seeing eachother and getting used to it, only to then allways be on opposite sides. But I guess that's the reason eclipses exist. Don't get me wrong, it's ok over here but... I'm not really whare I'm ment to be if I'm not with you.

I love you with every single heartbeat, every thought inside my brain leads me back to you. It's like I just plain exist so I can love you with my soul.  The stars seemed to align the very day I met you, those are the same stars I speak about you to.

Sorry if this is a little too upfront but I just really needed to tell you.

With my everlasting love to you,

Finney."

Well.... It's not the best, but it think I get my point across. I glance over at the letter over at my desk, I forgot to put it back in the drawer from last time I read it.

I still have the red string that tied the letters together, I made it into a necklace with the matching best friend ring as a charm. I wear it everyday.

I get up and take out an envelope from my desk drawer, I fold up the page and place it in the envelope and seal it. I write the address and the name.

I get up and I pulled my converse on and ran down the stairs to go and post it.

Hopefully she doesn't think that I've forgotten her or anything. I'm just sort of.
.. grieving? That's probably not the right word because she's not dead. I'm mourning the times that I would run over to her house, no matter if there was rain or snow and climbing in through her bedroom window when she called me asking for it.

Tears prick my eyes as my heart throbs and burns for this girl.

I miss her. So much.

A/n

Hi!!!! Sorry is this took a while I've just been busy with homework, I also got an injury that prevented me from focusing for too long because it was so painful. But I'm better now and here you go!