𝗛𝗶𝘀 𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲.Cato Hadley

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𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐚𝐛𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐞
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I don't know if I feel relief that I finally told someone I was pregnant or guilt that I failed to protect my own baby. If I had known... if only I had known that I was pregnant all this time, I wouldn't have allowed myself to blow up the arena. I would rather die than know that I lost the baby.

I continue to cry in Cato's mother's arms, but this time she doesn't know how to comfort me. Probably because she is shocked and did not expect to hear such news.

I pull my head out of her hands to look at her, but her face is all sadness. As soon as I meet her eyes I want to turn back time and not tell her about the baby. Now I've only made things worse instead of fixing them.

"I'm so sorry," I sob again. "I'm sorry I didn't save the baby..."

Celia quickly brushes away my tears with her fingers and hugs me tightly. I immediately return the hug by holding her tightly to me because this way I remember the feeling when I hugged Cato. Now she is the closest thing I have to him, that's why she is the first to learn about the baby.

"Don't, darling. I'm sorry this happened to you," Celia finally says.

I break away from the hug and look into her green eyes. They give me peace of mind that everything is okay and that her presence is worth it.

"It was all I had left of him," I barely say.

"I know, I know, I completely understand your pain. You are going through a lot right now, but I will be there for you. You won't be going through this alone anymore." Her words comfort me and somewhat stop my crying. I needed a mother to tell me that everything is okay, even though I know it isn't. I need some support to keep going fighting for Cato.

"Thank you for being here. I needed someone close to Cato to be able to share this thing," I say.

"I know it wasn't easy for you to tell me, but I promise you that things will only get better from here on out."

She is right. I am at my lowest point right now, I don't think anything else can happen to make the situation worse. All I can do is make things better. And that's exactly what I plan to do.

"I will fight for him. If Cato is still alive, I will do my best to bring him back again. I promise you." I mean it. It's time to stop living this way.

"I will help you as much as I can. I want my son back, I know that in my life I have not been the mother I should have been, so I have to make things right."

I know Celia is a good person because I can see her pain over missing Cato. I believe that if he comes back, she will be able to be the mother that he needs. This is why Cato couldn't love before he met me, it's just that his mother's love was replaced by his father's bullying.