Secrets and Lies : Conrad Fisher

moms home

i woke up around 7:30 Everyone was still passed out asleep. Thank god I'm not a person who gets hangovers. I decided to go grab Ella. When i got back, I can see my mum's car in the driveway

Well shit 

when i got up to the door waking into the house i saw my mum in the hall. when she headed the door open she turned around to look at me. with a scary look on her face. luckily, Ella's car seat was at the foot of the stairs so I put her in that, then turn to talk to my mother

"mom?"

"what are you doing here" i asked

"There you are. I have been trying to call you all night what the hell is going on here"

"Mum, it is not what it looks like I swear" I pleaded with her, stepping closer to her so I was in front of her.

"The boys needed me"

"The house it " I studied, trying to explain but she cut me off yelling.

"No don't try and make excuses with me in this house. What have you done to the place" she looked around, spray paint on the walls. I know this looks really bad.

"How can you take care of your daughter? If you can't even take care of yourself" she sounded disgusted

"Don't, don't bring her into this" I was so mad at her now. How could she say that.

"Say whatever you want about me, but do not bring my daughter into this"

i stepped closer to her "ever since I told I was pregnant. It's like you been waiting for Me to fuck up and tell you you are right" i tell her, and it's true i always feel like she is just waiting for the pin to drop.

"Maybe I thought you would realise your making a mistake,I love Ella I truly do. but you had so much going for you" i let out a bitter laugh and shook my head

"What did you for abandon your daughter to party"

"It's not like that"

"What kind of mother would leave their child like that"

"Well, I learnt from the best" i don't even mean to say it it just came out. i don't regret it.

I didn't even see it coming. I just felt the sting on my cheek as my head joked to the side, i put my hand up to my cheek realising she slapped me, she fucking slapped me, i looked at her in shock. She never done that before, a tear fulling down my cheek i just picked up Ella and walked away. covering my mouth with my hand to muffle my cry's.

I could hear footsteps behind me. I know they were Conrads. I was looking at the ocean, tears running down my face, ella hasn't stopped crying since I walked out the door.

"shhhh it's ok ella everything is okay" I told her rocking her back and forth.
"lottie" Conrad questioned as he got closer

"shhhhh baby don't cry"

"She won't stop crying" I said turn around to Conrad. "I can't get her to stop" his face fell when he saw the tires on my cheek.

"Hey hey, it's okay" walking closer to me

"no it's not, I'm a horrible mother"

"What are you talking about" he asked confused

"My mums right I can't do this" I looked at my daughter. "She deserves better than me"

"don't say that" Conrad grabbed Ella out of my hands and she stopped crying straight away

"See, she hates me" putting a hand through my hair