Secrets of the Solomons

5. Fiona:

Fuck prison floor is very cold. They could've at least given me a blanket to sleep with. I wonder if he's dead yet. I hope he is. I truly do. Wish I could see him take his last breath properly. Slowly see life go out of his body. If it only weren't for my elder brother seeing it and calling the police, I could've seen it.

*flashback to 1 month before*

Why are school teachers so annoying? I get straight As on every exam. What's so wrong if I bunk school to go out and have a day by myself?? Seriously, calling my parents just makes the whole situation worse. I am not a male child that my dad's gonna let me go so easily. Do teachers not have an idea of what rich parents are actually like? I mean bro! You have been teaching for like 30 years at this school and all my family members, every last one of them went here. You went to school with them too!! Do you not have an idea what parents in my family are like?? I swear either these teachers have no brain cells at all or they're just blind.

I also have to go study with a student tutor at 3. I wasn't forced but it's better since they have experience and this way even though I'll get straight As either way, I'll be able to not stay home more and also study more so plus points for me.

The school day was almost ending when I had to go home and get yelled at so Riley saved the day by inviting me to her till I had to go study with my tutor and come back to her house to sleepover. Since my dad likes and is fond of Riley he couldn't say no to me about staying over at her house.

"YOU ARE SUCH A LIFESAVER!!", I say to Riley after my dad cuts the call after giving permission. "No problem, I've got your back. It's a piece of cake inviting you since I had a fight with my dad and he finally realized he was in the wrong. He is now trying to stay on my good side. However, I wouldn't care anymore since he fights with my older brother more. Also, my mom's making fried rice, she called me and she's making all your favorites", Riley says as she packs her bag for the next class. "I love your mom man. Her food is the best, especially the fried rice. I mean bro literally what is the recipe?? I've been asking since we were 13 years old. Anyways I'm gonna go. Bye"

"I'll meet up with you after school. From there we'll go to my house and then again I'll drop you off at the library."

"No need. I'll directly come to your house after I finish with my tutor.", I say declining her offer.

The whole day seems like a blur. Studying is my only way to get out of the house. I used to enjoy studying. Now it just feels like a necessity to survive and stay sane. I don't genuinely enjoy it but I still do it. Not many people in my life will agree with that though. Since studying is the only thing they see me do most of the time. I wonder when and where I can truly be myself instead of walking on eggshells around everybody. Reminds me of my 14-year-old self desperately wishing to be successful and be fake all the time. Back then I still truly didn't know myself and now I don't know who I am either. No difference between me and her. We both have a face no one knows, a face that she and I only know about. The silent beast ravaging inside us waiting for the right moment to burst out like a ticking time bomb. I mean can anyone blame me if I go crazy one day and decide to kill everyone I know? The main reason I am sane is because I mostly stay out of the house all day. Either studying in the library or hanging out at Riley's or Izyy's house. The most mind-blowing part would be coming home at 9 p.m. out of my own will. I barely come home before 10 p.m. these days anymore.

The librarian is getting tired of having to escort me out almost every day. Seriously if I had the chance, I definitely would live there my whole life.

"EARTH TO FIONA. COME DOWN TO THE EARTH FIONA. "Riley's words snap me back to reality and I realize I'm already in her room. The whole day went like a blur and I was so focused on thinking that I didn't even realize where I was at. Embarrassed, I hide my face on the pillow as Riley is about to speak.

"Girl, at least pay attention to what I'm saying. What are you even thinking about so much? Or could it be a who? Fiona, are you dating someone?!!!"
"WHAT? No, why the heck would you think I am??"
"WELL, FIRST OF ALL, YOU'RE NOT LISTENING TO ME AND THINKING ABOUT SOMEONE ELSE AND SECOND OF ALL YOU ARE A VERY GOOD-LOOKING GIRl AND LASTLY YOU ON YOUR PHONE ALL DAY."
" I AM NOT DATING ANYONE RILEY!"
"DON'T YOU DARE LIE TO ME!"
"I AM NOT!"

"Fine, I was just messing with your head anyway. But are you never gonna date anyone I mean you had crushes and all but you never made your move."

" First of all I have crushes and the only reason I am not making a move is I'm not sure what I want from a guy or you know expect. Like knowing what you want and what you don't want. Like you know, imagine settling down with a guy you dated for like 2 years and realizing you settled down for the bare minimum. I don't want to have a life like my mom. Let's go to sleep now, I'm sleepy. Goodnight Riley."

"You make me think too much. Goodnight."