Angels Love

Mavericks POV

My head is a mess, I don't know what I have caused but all I know is I'm not in control.

Tierra doesn't appreciate of how I'm acting and neither do I.

Every feeling in my body is boiling from anger but from what I ask myself ever since Zayden's death.

I've been feeling more human than Angel, more mortal than immortal.

I guess the problem isn't me, it's my humanity that's pushing through my barriers causing me to act out my emotions that were Barried with everything else.
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AtI know i don't have much time to live and I want to spend eternity with her but not in this state I can't I won't.

Sohe will never date anyone as miserable as I am at the moment.

Whatever is going on with my body I must figure out and soon.

I take a moment to revisit the past memories I've shared with Zayden and my mother,

" It was a Christmas Day, our mother was growing older every second but we stayed the same due to us being immortal.

She was so happy that she got to see us until she died but I guess the case was sooner than expected, I went to go get her some medicine when zayden killed her behind my back not telling me anything afterwards.

I couldn't forgive him nor ever forget what he did but he was my brother but that's when I split town on my own and without the company of him.

It was hot where I was headed, an empty path with no exit and nothing but darkness ahead.

I was going town to town killing innocents because of my own guilt for not being there to stop Zayden before even him getting the chance of thinking about doing it.

I was in a rough place and desperate for a clean slate and new life without Zayden or anyone I knew in it.

That's when I stopped at a certain place and met Tierra, it was a decent experience but I didn't know what I wanted or what I was doing.

I just kept on telling myself to just kill her and move to a new location and to make sure I wasn't followed.

Which didn't go as planned and got myself distracted by how much I've learned to enjoy humans and how they process emotions.

I figured out that everything I've learned was from her, without her I would be nothing but a destructive force that won't ever feel satisfied.

An immortal without a purpose, a being without no lover involved.

An person alone and afraid of committing to somebody just because someone I loved was killed and I wasn't there to stop it or protect her.

That's when I never let Tierra out of my sight and I guess she got sick of it pretty quickly.

There are reasons why you should never meet a person like me, I'm not worthy of the trouble.

I cannot be saved by someone that is a mortal or has more of a important purpose than myself.

I will rescue Tierra every time she's in danger and why is because she was the original human of purpose.

The love I felt when I first saw her was consuming and refreshing to see and feel after a long time on earth.

It's becoming to feel just like home, something I need in order to be complete.

She helped me when I needed her the most now I must do the same which includes a attitude change for her sake and mine. "

Sitting on the balcony alone as Tierra walked away soon turning around running up to hug me just to see if it would change my mood which it did.

The alcohol finally wore off from my system and i hugged her back and kissed her on the forehead softly as we glanced into each other's eyes feeling tension.

She sat in my lap leaning her head in my chest as I fixed her hair admiring her.

I knew I wasn't meant for her and that she deserves much better and that I'm not loyal enough to be her chosen person.

But she saw more in me than I did myself and that is something you never can forget.

A star in every aspect that never fails to inspire others.

I ended up apologizing for how I've been acting and how the alcohol hit pretty hard and also explaining that I was going through the grief that I thought I have forgotten and left behind long ago.

But turns out that it was just getting worse and worse and building up a pit in my stomach that'll never be able to fill.

A never ending hunger for blood and kills of innocents that are in danger around me.

I knew my death was coming around, I could feel it taking its time approaching and waiting for me to find peace in all of my guilt.

Which I'll be never able to find or get unless I change everything about myself.