Buried Flame (Ace X GN!Reader)

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Angst

I needed an outlet for my grief, so this is it. I am putting all my feelings into this.

This is a tribute to my cat Teddy. You were my best friend and got me through so much. I will miss you forever 💔. I wish we could have more time together. The years we had weren't enough.

The song lyrics are not in the same order as the song. (Sorry)

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"I think I'll miss you forever
Like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky."

One moment you are here and the next you aren't.

It was a sunny and clear morning, not a single dark cloud on the horizon. A happy day, a normal day. Children ran around in joy whilst the birds sang their merry song. Yet you sat here and grieved on your cold wooden floor. Newspaper covered in agony, full tears. He said he would be alright. They said he would be alright, yet here you lay in woeful sorrow, a grief so great you wished you could burn. Burn away this pain and burn away the truth.

You couldn't move. You couldn't breathe. It was if you were stuck in time. Ever replaying that moment over and over again, the words you read repeating like a sickly mantra in your brain. Reality felt foreign to you like a horror filled hallucination of the brain. Memories flashing before your eyes. Moments you didn't grasp or times you didn't feel like you did enough. Because they weren't enough because they aren't enough for you now that you can't make any more moments or memories with him.

You wished for more yet no more you would get. You sat there and pondered. What could you have done to change this outcome. Could you have stopped him from going or even seen the signs of a future you could not read and stop it. You felt guilty for not doing more and useless for not doing enough whilst you could because now he is gone. He is gone, Forvever.

"Later's better than never,"

You wailed and cried and screamed and shouted for a person who was no longer there to hear them. How dare he leave without letting you say goodbye. He promised he would come back.

"Kiss me hard before you go."

You sat there in front of the white stone. You felt like it loomed over you a confirmation of the thing you wished wasn't true, yet you knew was. A cold wind blowed past you, making your already damp face even more frigid. You stared to shiver lightly as more tears fell past your face. You wished he was here to cuddle in your arms, his warmth dethawing even the coldest of moods. Yet no warmth was there to comfort you like you wished it would. You wanted to hug him one last time to feel comforted and safe in his arms.

"Honey, I'm on fire, I feel it everywhere."
"Nothing Scares me anymore."

Night drew in, and you still sat there almost motionless. You felt like that if you didn't move, maybe everything would go back to normal, just a dream and not the nightmare you lived in. The bright moon shined above you. Reflecting off the streaks that ran along your face as if the moon was sharing in your misery. You took out a candle and lit it in front of the stone. It smelt of cedarwood just like he did. You looked at your arm at the braclet, charred wood circling around your wrist. The dark colour reflects your feelings. A seemingly never-ending cycle of darkness, darkness without his light.

"I just wanted you to know
That baby you the best"
"I've got that summertime sadness, summertime sadness...."

You woke up, covered in a blanket blue and soft like the sea. The sea he loved so much. You could hear snores to the right of you. The blonde mop of hair rustled by the wind into an unkempt mess. You started to pat down the loose hairs as you could see his eyes open red and bloated. He was here as well in grief and suffering, and the one thing that kept you going was him. The stories you shared together and the tears you cried onto each others shoulders let the pain be hidden by happiness, but only momentarily. You sorrowed together until you could sorrow no more. The pain would heal with time. It will never leave, but with him here, you could heal together.

"I know if I go, I'll die happy tonight."

(Sorry that this is short)

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