𝙁𝙤𝙧𝙘𝙚 𝙁𝙞𝙚𝙡𝙙 - Charles Leclerc (CL16) [Book 1]

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚛𝚝𝚢

I think I've reached a new low. It's Monday morning, or maybe Monday afternoon, I don't know. I wake up with a bad back, I'm on the bathroom floor of Rae's hotel room. After Carlos' and my fight yesterday I was literally so angry I went back inside and just started downing more and more shots.

Carlos stuck to Lando for the rest of the night and I just drank away my sorrows alone at the bar. I didn't want to see anyone else or have to explain myself. Especially not Raegan. I could already hear her saying 'I told you so', that was enough for me to drink even more.

At some point, I remember her and Lando helping me get into a taxi and we drove to her hotel room. And that's when the fun started. Now I know why I've always stayed away from gin. I can't remember when I finally fell asleep on the bathroom floor, after throwing up everything I had in my gut. The whole time, Raegan didn't say a word to me, she held my hair and got me a blanket but then she went to bed and we haven't talked since.

Being careful not to move too abruptly, I slowly leave the bathroom and enter the bedroom. There is no sign of Raegan. Well, I could have guessed that since it's already 2pm. I walk around the suite trying to find a bottle of water when I find her sitting in the living area watching some TV.

She must of heard me coming, because as soon as I approached the sofa she turned her head to face me.

"Oh, did Sleeping Beauty finally wake up?" Her voice is filled with sarcasm. I try to reply to her but my throat is so dry that not one single word leaves my mouth.

She silently hands me a water bottle which I take from her with a thankful look on my face. I drink a big gulp and try again, "I'm sorry for yesterday." Even though Raegan and I have seen each other in some disgusting and bad situations, I don't think she's ever seen anything as bad as last night. I only receive a small nod from her as an answer.

Okay, I see, a small sorry won't make up for last night. Kind of understandable but still.

"I'm going to book a flight back to Nice, I can't be bothered to see or even fly with Carlos today."

Again, getting no reply from her, she just looks at me with a face I can't even describe. With a deep sigh, I get up from the couch and right just as I'm about to leave the room she speaks up.

"I told you to stay away from Charles, and not let him ruin your relationship. Well, to be honest, it's not him ruining your relationship, it's you. It looks like you're obsessed with him and I just don't get it. What actually happened between you two that everything he does winds you up so much that it causes a big fight with Carlos, YOUR BOYFRIEND, may I add, that ends in you getting blackout drunk at the bar. Liana, Lando and I had to carry you into the car! Please get your shit together and grow up. I love you but I don't know how much longer I can defend your behaviour. I don't even recognise you anymore."

With that, she gets up and heads towards the door before she turns to me one last time. "I mean it. Get it together, you are my best friend and I want you to be happy but Carlos is also one of my friends, he is Lando's best friend, he deserves to be happy as well. I want you to be that person who makes him happy, but if you can't be that person for him, then let him go now and don't wait until it's too late." Tears slowly start to make their way down my cheeks. "So, go and book a flight if that's what you want but I advise you to talk to Carlos and get it out of the way." Without another word, she closes the door behind her.

She is right, I like Carlos and he makes me feel so happy. I want to make it right with him, he deserves it and so do I. But sadly, she is also right about me and Charles. It bothers me so much to see him with Amelie knowing he cheated on her, also knowing it was me who he cheated with. I can't even explain it, I am happy with Carlos but I still get a jealous feeling when I see them together. Maybe it's because he was able to just get back to being in his 'happy' relationship after THAT thing happened between us and I can't seem to let go of it or it's something else. But I don't even want to think about a potential something else.