Genshit stories cause yes

"Early worries" Beiguang💔🌸 (pt.1)

Beidou awoke and her body in a cold sweat, she was breathing heavily and couldn't help but feel like she was going to scare her wife awake. So she left a note on the nightstand so when Ningguang awoke she wouldn't be too scared.

Ningguang, I didn't want to scare you awake by my panic, I awoke with a thought of my past and it caused me to panic slightly, I didn't desire to awaken you to I'm off on a small walk to rest my mind. I'll be back in an hour from the time I left so around 5:30 in the morning. So I'll be back around 6:30 in the morning.
Xoxo, Beidou~

Beidou then went down to the docks and drank a beer, her mind spinning with horrible thoughts.
Kill yourself
You're not worth anything
Worthless woman
Cursed child.
Controller of death.
The list goes on and on. But Beidou's anxiety only grew as she herd voiced behind her. "That one childish brunette woman, she's so weird."

Beidou heard, she thought they were speaking of her and she ran off, she was crying hysterically, tears streaming down her face as her soft sobs eventually stopped and she sat down beside the water in Lingju pass.

Back at the jade chamber Ningguang had awoken, it was now 8:00 in the morning and Beidou still wasn't home. Ningguang's worry caused her to begin asking herself questions.
Did she get lost?
Is she hurt?
Did she get killed?
Was she kidnapped?
Where is she?
Ningguang asked herself aloud as Yelan had entered the office Ningguang was in.

"She's no lost, Liyue is her homeland and she knows it like the back of her hand. She's strong and is likely not dead or injured. And wherever she is, who would have the guts to kidnap Beidou? I mean she did defeat Haishan at 16 without a vision." Yelan said, trying to eat the Tianquan's worries.

Shenhe was in the area of Lingju pass and ended up spotting Beidou, who had fallen asleep in a nice sunny spot of a field. Beidou's body unscathed other than a few scars from other situations.

Shenhe carefully awoke Beidou, and held Beidou's arms up as she pulled the woman to her feet.

"I was on my way to Liyue Harbor and ended up seeing you here, so how about we go back to the harbor together?" Shenhe offered.

Beidou nodded, her body slightly weak from having just woken up but still standing strong. The two walked to the harbor and were greeted by a worried Ningguang and a comforting Yelan.

"There you are!" Ningguang cried as she hugged Beidou tightly, her body shaking as she was fighting the worries away. She knew her captain was now safe in the harbor and she was feeling better about her lovers' safety.

"Sorry Ningguang, I ended up walking farther than intended and I ended up taking a nap because I was so tired." Beidou said, calming Ningguang's worry.

Truth is, Beidou thought something was wrong with herself, and she had convinced herself that Ningguang was insane to love her.

So Beidou building a world of lies in order to feel normal had caused herself to believe that Ningguang's love was fake.

"I don't deserve this.." Beidou muttered under her breath.

"Don't deserve what?"

"You... I don't deserve your love, your kindness... You have to be lying about loving me... who would love me anyways... I'm not a good person... I'm unlucky... but I don't deserve anything..." Beidou cried. She felt absolutely terrible, there was no end to her helpless and pitiful crying, she needed to learn Ningguang's love wasn't fake. But how?