Matt Sturniolo imagines

Guilty part 2 (⚠️TW content of SH and ED⚠️)

       I woke up the next morning to Matt playing on his phone, his arms still wrapped around me.
"Morning," I said with a stretch.
"Hey sleepy," Matt replied. I stayed watching his phone with him for a while.
"Hey, I'm really craving a McDonald's hash brown, you wanna go get some breky?" I paused for a moment thinking about how good some McDonald's breakfast sounds right now. At least it did, until I remembered the full meal that I ate the previous night.
"Mmm I'm not all that hungry, but I'll go with you and get a Dr. Pepper." I said with a smile.
"Okay, lemme just throw on a hoodie real quick." Matt mentioned clothing. I checked the weather to see that it's 83 degrees outside right now, way too hot. I got up and changed into a pair of shorts, I kept my hoodie on because I didn't want Matt to see my visible scars.
                 ~time skip, in the drive through~
       "Yes, that's all, thank you, have a good day" Matt said, grabbing the bag of food and driving away. I while we drove, I noticed a slight change in mood and expression from Matt. I'm not quite sure what caused it, but I don't want to be a burden, so I won't pry.
       When we got home, we sat in Matt's bed with our McDonald's. I looked at his food, holding back the urge to ask for a bite. I am craving that hash brown so bad right now. But then I felt guilty for wanting anything nutritious. 
       Matt put his food down and looked at me, tilting his head. His eyebrows at a slight downward angle, as he held a soft gaze.
"Yes?" I said, noticing his staring problem.
"Y/N, are you okay?" I felt the blood leave my face, my throat began to burn, and my face grew pale.
"Yea? Why?" I'm a terrible liar.
"Hon..."
"What?" I asked, trying to sound convincing that I had no idea what he was concerned about.
"In the car, babe. Your shorts rode up and I saw...something."
"Matt, I'm so sorry I can expl-"
"No no no, I'm not mad at you, y/n. It's okay to feel negative emotions, we all make mistakes. But, do you wanna talk about why you did it? Maybe that could help me help you."
"I just, felt guilty." I said, putting my head down in shame.
"Hon, about what?" He said, putting his hand on my knee. I sighed out of anxiety.
"Before the meal I had yesterday, I hadn't eaten a meal in like a week. I always see people online being so effortless and confident, but I can't do anything without having the burden of wondering if I look good doing it. I thought maybe if I got thinner, I would be pretty enough."
Matt looked at me with commiseration.
"Y/N, it literally boggles my mind how you could see your self as anything less than perfect. Even when you're sick, I have never ever looked at you without thinking about how breathtaking you are. You're it for me, y/n. You're enough for me."
"Thank you Matt." I pulled him into a hug.
"I love you." I said into his shoulder.
"I love you more." He replied.
"So, do you want my hash brown." I looked at him  with a look of revulsion.
"Okay, just one bite, please?"

I took the hash brown in my hand and hesitantly took a bite. It made me want to throw up, but I did it. To my surprise, I actually ended up eating half of his hash brown.
"I'm so proud of you my love." He said giving me a kiss.
"Thanks Matt."
God I am so lucky to have him.

A/N: IM SORRY PART TWO TOOK SO LONG 😭😭😭 and I fully have no excuse, I just got lazy, so I'm extremely sorry for that. Love ya! Suggestions are welcome 🙏