The new kid

~Chapter 12~

"I think we should break up," once those words left his mouth tears started to drip down my face. I opened my mouth to say something but he beats me to it. " I love you so much and I always will but I know deep down behind your love for me you have love for him that is ripping through your trying to get to your head. But before it gets there and my love for you gets stronger, I want you to be happy and what I've noticed is that your way happier with him. I love you," and with that he wipes some of my tears with the pad of his thumb and walks away.

Once he closed the door, I lost it. I fell to my knees and cried. Maybe Luke was right, Maybe I should give Matt and I another try.

I soon felt a pair of hands on my waist lifting me up and carrying me like a baby up the stairs and to the bathroom?

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have kissed you. It was a stupid move and I should have respected that you were taken and-" this time I cut him off by kissing him and I glad I did. Kissing him again brought back the good times we had when we were together, before that all happened.

the slow and passionate kiss turned into a fast and intimate kiss, maybe going a little to far. When I realized that we were both only in our under garments I pulled away from the heated kiss trying to catch my breath. Matt tried going in for another kiss but I put my palm up to his chest pushing him away a little.

"Did I do something wrong?" Matt asked confused as to why I pulled away.

"No Matt, I just think we are moving a little to fast. I mean Luke and I just broke up. I know what your going to say, ' you kissed me' . I like you a lot. Hell I love you but having sex right now wouldn't be right. At all. I just want to take some time and figure things out. I'm sorry," I whisper the last part.

"Don't be sorry Nessa. I understand. It wasn't right for me to try and take the kissing further. Take as long as you want. I'm not trying to push you to take me back." He pulled me into a hug and held me until I calmed down. I yawned. "You should head to bed," he said and pulled away from the hug.

"Okay," I yawned again and started to walk upstairs until I noticed he walked to the couch and sat down turning on the T.V. "Your not coming?"

"Nah, I'm not tired and I'm probably gonna take my parents car when they get back, If they drive back," Matt said laughing at the last part. I just stared blankly at him trying to figure out what was funny but I just gave and said a quiet 'Okay?' before heading up the stairs and to my room. I am so tired but I don't know why. Probably from all of the crying. This is probably why I always end up sleeping after I cry. Wow, I'm stupid lol.

Did I really just say "lol" ?! I need to sleep before I hurt myself by being stupid

I change really quick into some sleeping shorts and a t-shirt and lay in bed. Once I close my eyes it took a good 5 minutes and I was done for the day/night.

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SORRY ITS SHORT AND TBH BORING BUT IM TRYING TO UPDATE AND BRAINSTORM IDEAS. TRY TO COMMENT AND VOTE AND I'LL SEE YOU WHEN I SEE YOU. BYEEEEEEE. Oh and btw I changed things around in chapter 10 and 11 cause I stupidly put her dad back in the story forgetting he had died. Oh and thank you lxnxhxjssn for catching my mistake. Much love ~Vanessa