Warning: The following red flag contains scenarios of my experience with sexual abuse. If this is something you're not comfortable with, please refrain from reading the full part.
TLDR: I was used for my body on and offline.
This part right here is the one I was really scared to talk about. For the longest time, I was scared to bring this up to anyone, but now that I am free from the abuse that Jay put me through, I can talk about it to get my story told. As you can see from the TLDR, I was used and often perved on by my ex. I know I'm going to hear "You should've left the guy sooner", I know. At the time, I was scared and uncomfortable to do anything. I forgot when it first started or when he first asked me to start sending.... Stuff, but all I remember is I felt disgusting doing it and he'd leave or cheat if I didn't do what he said.
His lewd behavior didn't stay online. In literal school, he'd touch me and I was scared to say no a lot. I'm a people pleaser, and it's something when I was scared to stop him. Jay molded a gross side of me that I'm beyond embarrassed of. It's unhealthy that I went this long under his command like a slave in my own relationship. I only told two people about the sexual abuse, the only people I felt comfortable with telling. Now, to whoever reads this, I'm sharing this with you go expose my relationship further and to let you know that if you or someone is going through this, leave it as soon as possible or intervene for the friend or family member's safety.
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