"Why didn't you wake me up?" Elij's bedroom voice echoed inside my ears as he tightly wrapped his arms around my waist and hugged me from behind.
"You were sleeping peacefully."
The sun was just about to rise up now. I was patiently waiting for it. Maaga akong nagising kanina. Gustuhin ko mang ituloy ang tulog ko dahil sa pagod ay hindi ko rin magawa. Kaya nagdesisyon akong lumabas at hintayin ang pagsikat ng araw. Now as I watch the sea horizon, it was mesmerizing and breathtakingly beautiful. It was worth the wait.
The wait is surely so hard to do. It isn't easy to wait for something you aren't sure worthy enough. Waiting is full of uncertainty. It may give you false hopes and pain you need to endure throughout the way.
Elij is still waiting. He's too patient. I don't know how much patience he has in body that he couldn't get tired of me. When every problem is always on me. That's why it always crosses my mind... I don't think I am that worthy enough nor deserving of him. I don't think my love is already enough for him. It is just so hard to level his love for me.
"Elij..."
"Hmm?"
"Do you want us stay here for couple of days?" I asked him.
"Why?"
"I just want us to spend time together before going back to Manila, if you don't have any duties."
"Alright."
"Or do you prefer any other places? We can travel if you want,"
"Well..." aniya at mukhang nag-iisip pa. "Do you have any suggestions in mind?"
"I was thinking of going to Greece..." I trailed off and heaved a long sigh.
He quickly agreed. "Okay, Greece it is."
"For our honeymoon..." And I continued, I let out my heavy breath.
"Honeymoon?"
"Yeah. Let's get married, Elij." I glanced at him over my shoulder. "I want us to plan our wedding now and get married soon..."
"A-Are you really saying that?" His eyes literally widened and very shocked.
"Yes, I am." I chuckled and hugged his arms more.
"Are you really..."
"Yes nga. You know, during those weeks I wasn't in contact with you, I wanted to test my own feelings and emotions. I want to figure myself out and think alone. But there is always one thing that can't take off me and keeps me stay. My love for you is stronger than what you think. Even though, you loves me more than I love you. I still love you, Elij. That's what matters."
"Quartz..."
"And, I just finally realized you are more important than any other people around us. I realized, I don't wanna lose you again. You are the only man I want in my life too. You were the only person who made me feel loved and made me feel like I still deserved to be loved. You loved me for who I was and still loving me until now for what I just had became. You see me as an important gem that can be kept and valued..."
"Because you are a gem."
I smiled and nodded. I continued, "Honestly, I don't deserve you and your love at all. You are too much for me, Elij. I was so insecure if I could be able to give back the overflowing love you're giving me. I was full of your love."
"You deserve all of me,"
"Are you really sure of me now?"
"A hundred percent, babe." He chuckled. "
