This Is What Dreams Are Made Of: Merder

One Step at a Time

Meredith's POV:

It was the morning after the day we found out about the baby and I still didn't know how to ask Derek what he wanted to do.. I didn't even know what I wanted to do, I mean I think deep down I knew what we had to do, but I didn't want to accept it and I don't think Derek wants to either.

"Hey." Derek said as I woke up on his chest.

"You didn't sleep did you?" I asked as I lifted my head up and sat straight up on the bed.

"I couldn't, Bailey was up a few times last night, came in here and laid down with us for a little while before going back to bed, so I was up making sure he was okay and wasn't going to fall off the bed, since he was laying on the edge."

"I see, sorry you didn't sleep last night, you could've woke me up and I would've watched him for a little so you could sleep."

"Don't worry about it, I wasn't tired anyways."

"Okay. I'm going to go get them up now."

"Hey, when are we going to talk about this?"

"You know, there's nothing we really have to talk about Derek, there's nothing else we can do. We only have one option and it's better to get it done and over with sooner rather than later. Alex and I talked about it last night, and he told me to let him know our decision and he'll set it up with the OB that Arizona talked to about this."

"Meredith.."

"Derek, there is nothing else we can do. I know this isn't what either of us wanted, but there is only one thing we can do about this. You can be there if you want, if you don't that's fine too, i'll ask April or Alex to go with me."

"If that's what you want, call Alex, set it up and i'll be there."

"Thank you." I said before leaving the bedroom and going into the bathroom, shutting the door and breaking down into tears.

Later in the day, I had called Alex, and he told me he set everything up for the next day, and if I wanted to change my mind to let him know, which deep down I wanted to be like "cancel it" but I knew we had to do it.

"Can you get the kids ready for bed please?" I asked Derek after we had eaten dinner and they played while I was cleaning up.

"Mhm. Come upstairs when you're done." He said as he walked by kissing the side of my head before telling Zola and Bailey to go brush their teeth and picking up the girls on his way up the stairs.

A few minutes later I went upstairs into our room.

"Come lay down." Derek said.

I laid down next to him and he pulled me close.

"I love you. Remember that okay? I will love you forever. No matter what happens in our lives."

"I know, I love you too." I said before we both fell asleep.

The next morning, time went by really slow. Derek and I took a week off work, so we didn't have to go in and worry about surgeries. Personal time, not medical leave like it should've been, so it didn't look to suspicious.

We arrived at the OB's office, where they had me drink tons of water before going into the room.

"Meredith Shepherd." The nurse called, waiting for us.

The whole thing took about an hour, maybe less, time went by very slow. We drove home, and I immediately went and laid down in bed.

AN: I mean, this chapter was sorta a filler chapter, I had to follow through with everything that happened in the last chapter so as boring this chapter probably was, the next ones are more interesting. The next chapter has a time jump and it's fairly interesting.