My Star - Tom Kaulitz

Suck it up.

Y/n POV
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Me and Tom are just friends so I could care less of what he thinks of me and John I would defend my boy best friends name. He can think of whatever and if it bothers him of me and John being together 24/7 then he can go it's nothing new when they leave anyways. If he stayed honestly I would feel weird because they normally always leave. I need to stop thinking before I fail this stupid math class. I see Tom come in and he looks pissed and the teacher pointed to the seat that is next to John so he has to sit there great I say in my head. I look over to John and tell him to get closer to me so I don't have to talk so loud. Me and John ended up doing work to ignore Tom.

30 minutes later

John omg I get the work thank you for having patience with me since I'm a slow learner. John says anytime math is really easy to be honest it's underrated. I say yea yea nerd and laugh he says whatever at least I get it loser. I laugh and roll my eyes ok ok whatever but your still a nerd although I wish I can be one for real I want to be smart. Imagine John says I just laugh.

30 minutes later

Finally math is over the last period of the day I just wanted to go home and lay in bed but I forgot I have to go to the out zone with John the bed can wait I guess. John let's go I say John says wait aren't you gonna wake up your toy? I say no bruh leave it be there's gonna be like 5 other girls racing to him right now watch.  I glance at Tom and John says holy shit your right me and him start laughing when am I not he has hoes my love. John says I could have that many hoes too I just don't try I say yea sure. I have that many hoes is just I be around you that they don't even show up to me. John laughs it's true I say anyways let's go find Nikki. As me and John go find Nikki I see that Tom is somewhere with another girl I laugh out loud and roll my eyes because if he knew how many boys I be around with he'd be mad. John I see Nikki let's go as me and John start running towards Nikki I see her with Bill fuck she's not gonna wanna come I tell John says should we ask? I don't know I say because she looks happy and I don't want to ruin it. John says your right I mean we can text her and tell her where we're going to be at so she can come by if you want? I say yes that's better. As me and John start walking I tell him if we should take my brother Arnold and Frank and the rest can walk home alone since there not that young. John says sure let's go find them as me and John start walking to find them I see Tom alone I tell John to keep going I'm going to stay back and sit for a little he nods his head and walks away.

Tom POV
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I see Y/n walking towards me does she care? Or am I just wishing she did I feel like she doesn't for some reason. She comes and sits next to me and says we're just friends love I don't want to hurt you. I say you won't and why just friends I want you and only you give me one chance. Y/n says I'm sorry but it's better off as friends my love. I get up and leave from disappointment. Y/n says I'm sorry loudly I say your not because you would've at least tried.

Y/n POV
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Tom says "your not because you would've at least tried." When he said that something inside me dropped or like broke he's right but I always end up messing up and I know he will mess up too. I want a relationship when I'm ready and when he's ready and where he won't get pissed when he sees me with another boy and will react to it by going with other girls if he acts like that in the relationship i would do the same but that's not healthy and I want a healthy relationship. I'm going to stay strong and hold in the tears that we're trying to burst out because crying wouldn't help it, it would just show how much it hurts you. Suck it up.
John and my two brothers show up I yell out ready? And they say fuck yes let's go. You guys I say I don't know if I want to go they say why we were supposed to have fun I know I'm sorry I uh don't feel good but here take my joint and have fun they say are you sure I say yea it's ok don't worry John says imma stay then my brothers say you sure he says yea so she can get home safe you know I say no it's ok I can box for a reason you know fine he says I say byee have fun! They walk away I wait for them to leave so I can go after.

10 minutes later

Ok now I'm going to go I get up and start walking. I put on my headphones and put constellations by Duster. As I'm walking I see a kid with there dad in the park and the kid looks happy they look happy. I sit and admire them they genuinely look like there having fun. When I see kids with there dads it just reminds me how I didn't get to be with mine but it was for a good reason I guess although it hurts sometimes. I'm going to tell you a little bit of my past with my "dad" I guess I don't really like counting him as my dad after what he has done.

                                  Author
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I was supposed to do this yesterday but I felled asleep I'm sorry my loves anyways I finished my edit for Nikki and I like it a little I guess but anyways hope you guys enjoyed im making the other one right now bye!!🫶🏼