Butterfly, Don't Fall (Boyxboy)

Chapter 3 - The Pain Has Left A Hole In Which My Heart Should Have Been

Sam woke up the next day not sure what happened the night before. Did he drink too much and everything was just a bad dream? He turned around and saw the thin guitarist lying next to him curled up in a ball. He looked so hurt. This was reality, Sam did not drink too much. He was so mad, why did he let it come so far? He noticed that Cam changed but he didn't do anything. He let Cam do his thing. That thing unfortunately was shutting everyone out and - he didn't even know what Cam did over the past few two years. He probably did a lot of bad things Sam thought as he got out of bed, grabbed his phone and walked into the kitchen. He couldn't remember how his and James' phone call yesterday ended so he decided to call James and give him a quick update.

Again he picked up pretty fast "Sam? Please tell me that Cam's alright! He has to be! Is he?", his voice was trembling and he walked up and down a room waiting for the bassist's reply "Hi James. Yes he's alive" "Oh thank fuck! How is he? Are you - did you have to go to hospital? Shit Sam, why did he do that?" "James, calm down! Physically he's alright. Mentally he's a complete mess. I don't know why exactly he wanted to do that but" Sam's voice cracked and he sighed "But I think he has several mental illnesses. Apparently someone was with him, I couldn't see him but Cam was 100% sure that there was someone. He asked me why I wouldn't make him go. James, I think Cammy has schizophrenia or something like that." Silence. It took James a while to think of something to say "You should take him to a doctor. He obviously is ill and he needs help. I'm not saying he's a freak or anything, I'm just worried. You should go with him though. He trusts you the most and you two are the closest friends possible.." The two men continued to talk for a while. Apparently Brittany was mad because Sam left last night, not caring about Cam's possible condition at all, only thinking about her 'realtionship' with Sam. "You're kidding me right?! He could've died and she only cares about her 'fantastic relationship' with me? She's a fucking selfish bitch! I can't believe I started dating her! I never really loved he - I mean I stopped loving h- Well fuck" he sighed and ruffled his hair "Sam, are you saying that you never loved her?", James got curious. He knew that Sam once had feelings for the guitarist but he stopped thinking about it as soon as Sam started dating Brittany "NO! Yes. Maybe. I don' t know." He started playing around with random things on the dining table "James, I have to hang up. Bye!" He hung up and dropped his phone on the table "Bloody hell! I have to stop using this fucking nickname! Yeah Cammy is totally not obvious at all." He buried his face in his hands and zoned out.

The door bell took him back to reality, he stood up and opened the door. "Hey." Brittany hissed and walked in "Hi Britt! How are you?", Sam obviously was not pleased to see her but asked anyway "Oh shut up Samuel! You left yesterday. You just went back home and you didn't even bother to tell me. All I got was a 'uh Sam is gone' from a wasted Ben! And why? Could you please explain that? Apparently a night out with your girlfriend is too boring for you." Sam started to get mad already "You're so selfish! I went home because I was worried about Cam! I did not go home because I was bored!" "Selfish? You call me selfish? Cameron is a grown ass man! I'm sure he can stay alone for a while! He WANTED to stay in, what's wrong about that? All you care about is him! I don't even matter to you, right? You know what, I was happy that he didn't join! Because everytime he's with us you only talk with him! It's always Cam Cam Cam!" Sam laughed "You not selfish? You're happy because he didn't come so you could keep me for your fucking self! He's my best friend, of course I care! I knew he was not ok, so I went back home . And it was good that I did! he would be dead now if I wouldn't have come back! Fuck Brittany! HE COULD'VE DIED!" Did she even care a little bit? Nobody could be this heartless, right? "Well that was what I hoped would happen." Brittany shook her head and muttered. Now this was too much "WHAT? You hoped this would happen? How the fuck can you hope that he would die? What is wrong with you?!", he started to tear up and Brittany started laughing "Of course I did! He wanted to leave this world! It was his own choice! Why would I stop him? If he wants to stay in to kill himself, fine. I'm totally ok with that! He was so annoying! All he did was trying to get between us!"