Eddie x Gaege ~ A killer?

Chapter 11: The fight

The rest of the year went past fairly fast. Not much happened to Eddie or me. I've had my gang going out and killing the people I needed dead. It was a hard decision because that feeling I got was addicting, and I often became depressive or angry. I have felt extremely sensitive. We finished our finals for the year and went to our graduation. Thankfully his father hasn't been bothering us anymore, but I left him loads of threats to keep him in place. I've kept needing to lie to Eddie though, since he really wanted to know what happened that day and all the time, and I think it's gone too far. Don't blame me, and I don't mean it in any way but, being around Eddie all the time is amazing, but it is getting annoying with him being around me 24/7. So, it's no surprise we would end up fighting eventually. 

"Gaege, please. Tell me the truth. I know you're a very secretive person and all, but you can trust me with anything." Eddie pleaded. I was standing half naked in our bathroom staring at all the scars I had all over my body. Some old ones, and some new. There was a new cut, placed from my hip all the way to my shoulder. Deep, it was so fucking deep. It was slightly bleeding but I had managed to stop most of it. I had decided to fill the urge I've had and snuck out to go on one of my mission things, but I had gotten carried away and accidentally killed an innocent person. They fought back like their life was on the line, and it was. I felt their breathing stop between both of my hands and I stopped myself right has they died. They had managed to get a hit on me while I was distracted, and I killed them. There were tears running down my face and I held the sink tightly. Blood covering my hands, sink and clothes. A few drips managed to get onto the white bathroom tiles, the red contrasting with the bright white. "Eddie, I need some time too myself..." I said through sobs, my chest ached, not just from the cut but the fact that I killed someone who has probably never done anything bad enough to deserve this. "I just want to help Gaege, please. We've been dating for almost a year now and you still can't even trust me." I kept quiet. Then spoke out of a little anger. "It's not that I don't trust you, it's that I don't think you'll understand. Fuck why is this so hard!" I pushed off the sink and looked at Eddie. My cheeks were wet from crying, and I wiped my burning eyes. "You wouldn't understand, and I think you'd hate me if I told you." I spoke. Eddie reached out and grabbed my shoulders gently. "Tell me what? There's nothing you can say that would make me hate you." I couldn't stop myself. "That I fucking k-" I stopped, my thoughts coming to a complete stop. I stared into Eddie's eyes, and he looked at me desperately. "Gaege...that you what?" He tried forcing the information out of me. I frowned and pushed him away, literally and figuratively. "I just can't." "But why?!" I got angry that he was yelling now and fisted my hand. "I just fucking can't, okay?!" I said, looking up. He scoffed and flung his arms. "It's probably not even that big of a secret anyways." He spoke. I sighed aloud making him turn to me. "Like I said, you wouldn't understand." My teeth gritted near the end of the sentence. Almost like a warning. Eddie got too angry and yelled at me. "Then make me fucking understand Gaege!" I have to admit I got a little too upset when he did that. My body lunged at him, my fist colliding with his nose. I grabbed his shoulders and threw him against the wall slipping my hands around his throat and squeezed a little. My breathing quickened and I stared down at my hands, bruising his skin under my touch. Eddie looked at me with a horrified look across his face. Some blood was dripping from his nose, across his lip and dripped off his chin onto my arm. My grip tightened even more for a second and I squeezed my eyes shut. An image of my father and mother flashed in my mind making me let go and look at Eddie terrified. I looked at my shaky hands then back at him. My breathing was so fast that I felt lightheaded. I felt a sob escape my throat and dashed past him towards the door. "Gaege, wait! -" I stormed out the bathroom into my room and took out a bag. I packed a few pairs of clothes over the guns that were already in there. "Baby, what are you doing?" Eddie said after catching up to me. I shut the bag and turned just to be met face to face to him. My eyes went to his neck, and I saw my handprints forming around his neck. Purple blue marks in his tanned skin. My face convulsed and more tears fell from my face. "There's money in this card." I started handing him my credit card. "There's enough to pay for the rest of yours, and Issabelle's education." I handed it to him, but he wouldn't take it. "What do you mean? What are you doing Gaege?" I wiped my eyes and set a straight face. "You all can keep my house; I'll keep paying rent so don't worry about that. And I'll keep adding money to my card so non of you need to work." I grabbed his hand and set it in then closed his fingers. "Eddie, I love you so much, but I'm scared my job will get you killed." I stated, leaning up to peck his lips one last time. He held my jaw and kissed me back. His other hand slipped around my waist. "Babe, you're not thinking. Put everything down and we can talk this through. You just need to tell me the truth." One more tear fell down my cheek. "T-the thing is, I can't Eddie. I really can't. I hope you can forgive me for what I'm doing. I'm scared I kill you." I admitted, then I pushed him away and walked out the room. He followed me down the stairs, calling out my name. Trying to stop me but my mind was set. I almost hurt him, and I'm too dangerous to be around him. If I stay, there's a huge chance they will all die because of me. And I am not willing to take that sacrifice. I walked out the door and found Eddie right behind me. "G-Gaege," There were tears in his eyes. "I love you too. Please don't go. Just stay here, with me. Y-you don't need to tell me anymore. I just want you to stay." I shook my head and smiled at him. "Goodbye, Eduardo."