FF: The Secret Desires (Tere Bin, Meerasim)

Part 15: Hide-n-Seek

"STUPID, IDIOT, DUFFER! WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?" Saba yelled over the phone... the tone was so loud that Murtasim had to move the phone away from his ear as he wrinkled his brows... "On the new site for an urgent meeting...is everything okay? Is Meer—...." he was cut off.... "Don't you dare ask about her!.... if you were so concerned, why the hell did you leave her alone in the first place?...I told you to be with her as she needed you the most but YOU JUST DON'T LISTEN, MURTASIM!" Saba was super pissed.... "IS SHE OKAY?" he started to panic... "Babasaab told her everything..." she lowered her tone... "and She passed out again ...that too calling out YOUR name.... but you idiot, decided to vanish from the FACE OF THE EARTH!" she yelled again... and there! he mentally kicked himself yet again! "I will be there in 40 mins" he confirmed looking at his watch as he almost ran towards the car....

'Calling out your name' why did she call out his name? After last night, did she still expect him to be there for her? Was she counting on him?.... Did Baba Saab tell her that I knew about it? Was she mad that instead of telling her the truth, I screwed up with her? ... a thousand mixed emotions were going through his mind as he tried to figure out the meaning of each turmoil buzzing his brain with a new apprehensive query.... one second he felt guilty and the very next moment, he wanted more.... one second he felt he lost her and the very next moment he felt she wanted him as much as he wanted her.... "Shit Shit Shit" Murtasim repeatedly banged on the steering wheel out of frustration and then ran his fingers through his hair as he rubbed the back of his neck, while trying to concentrate on the traffic....

"She will be fine! Nothing to worry about. Call me if needed" the family doctor reassured with a smile as she met the husband of her patient at the main entrance. Entering the bedroom, he received two glares from his mother and sister, who threw him a disappointed look before leaving him with his wife, who was leaning against the headboard with her hands in her lap....

Murtasim quietly walked to his side of the bed.... trying to maintain a decent distance as he did not trust himself around her anymore... she looked somber yet attractive in the purple suit... he found her even more beautiful... he wanted to take her in his arms but was afraid to mess things up again.... he wanted to kiss her, cherish her, ravish her and make love to her again to the fullest contentment of his heart.... he felt he did not get enough of her.... and needed more and more of her.... No, he could never get enough of her..... what the hell was he thinking? she was in a dilemma and all he could think about was to make love to her?.... 'BUZZ OFF MURTASIM' he heard a knock on his brain...

He knew about it all and yet left her alone to deal with it all by herself.... he regretted it last night and abandoned her in the morning.... Yes she knew she wanted to hide but why did not he seek her? .... why did he come here now? to show sympathy?.... 'I FUCKING DON'T NEED YOUR SYMPATHY!' her heart cried out in frustration.... 'HOW HARD IS IT TO TAKE ME INTO YOUR SOOTHING ARMS AND MAKE ME FEEL WANTED AND NOT ABANDONED?' Meerab closed her eyes and bit her trembling lower lip, trying to suppress herself from bursting out at him.... grabbing her legs against her chest she buried her face in her knees as she broke into a sob.... "Go away, Murtasim" in her low shaky voice, she told him, still weeping.... "leave me alone....I don't need you.." she lied with another sob...

Meerab did not want to face him... she was ashamed of herself.... she hated him ...she wanted to be alone....most importantly, she did not need him.... the realization hit him hard as Murtasim helplessly watched her sobbing in her knees... with a broken heart, he left the room, granting her the space he wished she never wanted....

"I don't need your sympathy... I don—" she looked up to find the room empty... and she broke into another cry as she covered her mouth with both hands to suppress the loud emotions coming out of her chest.... He was gone again... he left her alone yet again....