My mantle health is a bit bad right now I mean it was always like this but that's just getting worse with the time so worse to the point that a hug a HUG can make me cry but not just a few tears I mean a breakdown but I also think that it's good that I know what can help me the problem is I got no one to hug... I mean there's 4 people that I would love to the first one is a boy in my class he's the cutest and I think he might just care about me ( not a lot of people do) but I don't wanna catch feelings or even think that he might care about me so I just leave it like that the other three is totally impossible and a lot of people say " don't say something's impossible your gonna manifest it " I usually get that but when it comes to the people I wanna cry on and for them to hug me it's IMPOSSIBLE believe me and I'm gonna tell you why because their names is Jason kelce Travis kelce and Taylor swift and yes you can say I know Travis and Jason because taylor swift and that is true we don't have football in my country so when the rumors started about them dating I was discovering a whole new world and I don't regret that I love Jason and Travis and a lot of other players so much even though I got to know than through Taylor . I would like to hug and have a mental breakdown on Jason because I truly believe he'll be there he won't judge me I just truly believe that but I wanna hug him as a father daughter kinda thing I would lie if I told you I'm not a bit attracted to him but not that much and I wanna have a mental breakdown on Travis not just because he's literally my BIGGEST celebrity crush I just know that he'll be the sweetest I just know he'll take me in without thinking twice he'll place sweet kisses on my head and he'll say that I'm alright and that everything is gonna be fine and I would love to stay in the fantasy of thinking that if one of these days I'll see him that would happen and how can I even begin to talk about Taylor I love her so much to the point it's physically hurt me I love her is a tiny word I can say I don't love her because she's famous I don't love her because of the guys she dated not because she's a billionaire not because she's a pop star even though her music is legendary I don't love her because of that too I love her because I fell she can get me I know she won't judge me I love her because she's an amazing person I can look in her eyes and know that all to well leave the fact that I'm so gay for this woman I would give anything for her I just know that if she'll ever meet me she'll be the sweetest person ever I know that if I ever talked to her she'll have the best advice and I know for a fact
