I can't anymore that shit doesn't work like that man I really don't believe I deserve that why the fuck would they do that I had to fucking step on a scale and you know wtf that shit said oh yes your overweight the minute I read that I was about to cry it took my fucking 2 years to stop starving myself and sh and all of that fucking home with in a minute and you know what my fucking mom said yes that's true you should stop eating to much as if I'm not already aware of that I don't fucking have the power to go through with that but I have to get skinny if I won't the she will continue with all that comments and I can't with that it's not fucking ok I can't I wish I could just be gone I don't want that and now I need to fucking hide all the bloody tissues in my room so no one would suspect and now I also got to go to school as if I'm all good and I'm not hurting at all physically and mentally I can't take it I don't wanna be here anyway no one care about me everybody use me for something else and everybody is my friends until I wanna talk about something I literally started talking to my bear and man he is a good listener better then my fucking "friends " i wish someone cared about me enough to ask " did you eat today?" " how are you feeling?" " are you ok do you need help you know I'm here for you right?" Is that too fucking much to ask for i can't keep up with all that shit I don't want to go through with it why do I have to I'm a fucking teenager I want to have my teenage life I wanna have a first kiss again I want to have sex for the first time again I don't fucking deserve that shit they took my girlhood he took my innocence I want it all back I WANT IT BACK. Give it back please. I can't I literally lost all my fucking powers
