A Dream Coming True

Chapter 17

August 31st 2022

Forty minutes that I've been sitting in the train. And forty minutes that I've been asking myself a ton of questions about this weekend.

I wondered if things were going too fast, if I wasn't getting myself in something I would regret. I mean, we kissed, but what happened next ? Did this make us a couple ? Did I wanted to be with him ?

I think this question was a pretty easy one to answer. I loved being with him but I didn't want him to suffer. Every time I tried to let myself think I could be happy with someone, his face would be all I could see.

charlottesine : So, how was the weekend for you ? I thought you were dead.

I hadn't texted or called Charlotte all weekend, being too occupied with Pierre.

lilaprost : Still alive.

charlottesine : You do sound like it.

lilaprost : Can I call you to explain everything ?

charlottesine : Since when do you have to ask ?

A chuckle escaped my lips. She knows me too well. I went to the back of the train and dialed her number.

"What happened ?" was the first thing she said.

I sighed and playing with a strand of my hair.

"A lot."

"I assume this has something to do with his absence on Thursday's interviews."

Of course she connected the dots in her head. Pierre's absence had been all over the net, the medias writing the most ridiculous theories about this 'family member' who needed his help.

"You assume well. I, uh, I had a sort of panic attack ?"

"What ?" she screamed. I knew she would react like this. "Why didn't I know about this ?"

"I'm sorry Cha, I know I should have told you."

"Were you alone ?"

"No," I made a pause, "Pierre was there."

"What happened ?"

"We went to the circuit because he wanted me to come with him to Anthoine's grave and I started to see him everywhere so I panicked and I left crying."

"Any nightmare ?"

"No. He stayed with me the whole night. I was so ashamed the next morning."

"You know, that was very brave of you to try and go out there."

She always said the words I needed to hear deep inside. I knew this was brave, but my reaction surely wasn't.

"But it wasn't brave at all me starting to cry when we were here for him in the first place."

"Did he say this ?"

"Who ?"

"Pierre. Did he say he was mad at you for crying or was he here to console you ?"

I didn't even have to think about the answer.

"He stayed with me."

"So..."

"He wasn't angry at me."

"I knew you weren't stupid !"

"Hey !"

"You're not making this easy for me Lils. Of course he wouldn't be mad at you. He likes you !"

"I think I already know that, because we kind of kissed ?"