That One Moment | Cake

3~ What Do I Do?

LUKE's POV

I run. I don't stop even though the tears falling from my eyes blind my vision. I just run all the way home. Michael taught me how to navigate with the stars so I was covered.

•at home•

"...and then I ran here" I finish explains to mikey what happened, tears still falling.

"Oh Luke. Come here" mikey sighs hugging me. I sob in his arms soaking his muscle tank.

"What did you feel?" Mikey asks after a while of silence.

"What?" I sniffle looking up at him.

"What did you feel when you and Calum kissed?" He repeats better said pulling away.

"I-I-I felt like we were the only two people alive. That when his lips touched mine, butterflies, no a fucking zoo erupted in my stomach. Once I pushed him away I regretted it. I instantly missed the warmth of his lips. I saw a pained look in his eyes. I wanted to kiss him again to make up for it, but before I knew it, i was meters away from him. I couldn't turn back."

"Lukey. You have strong feelings for Calum from what I hear. Tell him everything you told me. If he likes you as much as you him, he'll understand" mikey smiles at me.

"Your right. But I don't know anything about him. And i don't have his number" I sigh. "But I did meet his sister today, I'll head down to her shop and talk to her tomorrow" I say having hope for once.

"Okay. Now go get some sleep. You deserve it" he says patting my wrists softly.

I smile at him before heading to my room and going to sleep. I know you might be wondering, but before mikey left me and ash had plans for all of us to live together. We bought the house a few months back and now it's complete with Michael here.

•next morning, school•

"Ash I dont feel so well" I say as we enter the school gates.

"You'll be fine Luke. If you don't feel better soon, just come to whatever class I have at that time and we'll go home." Ash reassures me with a warm smile.

"Welcome to another year in hell" mikey sighs heavily entering the corridors.

"Come on mikey. Schools not that bad" Ashton laughs.

"But seriously! Those damn teachers never turn on the a/c. It's fucking hot as hell in there" mikey whines.

I laugh at him along with ash through the hallway. I stop laughing once I hear the comments.

"Ew he's still in this school?"

"I heard he tried to kill himself"

"What a freak"

"He's so ugly"

"Gross"

"I wish he'd just kill himself. He's never noticed anyway"

"It would be so much better without him contaminating the halls"

That one. That comment made me break. I start tearing up as I run to the bathroom with my head down. I quickly run inside and see that there are no people inside. I take the blade from my bag and hold it against my wrist.

I look in the mirror and stare at myself.

'Do it'

Is all I hear before I see red. I see red on the sink. I see red droplets on the floor. I see red pooling on my arm. I fall down and start crying. I let my head rest on the wall as I sob quietly shutting my eyes. Suddenly I hear someone come in but I ignore them.