That One Moment | Cake

10~ Depression

CALUM's POV

There it is. I can see Luke. We can be together again. I quickly rant the cabinet until I find them. I sit on the edge of the tub and try to open the cap of the red and white pills. I scream in frustration.

"Calum?" A voice says.

I ignore it and keeping crying while trying to get the bottle open.

"Calum!" Mikey gasps entering the bathroom.

"I can't get it open!" I scream.

He runs up to me, snatches the pills and throws them across the bathroom. He quickly brings me into his arms while crying.

"I want to die" I sob.

"Shh" Michael coos calmly even though he's crying as well.

• Next Day •

MICHAEL's POV

I look at Calum, observing Luke's body. The doctor told me he has a 5% chance to live and he can change that.

"Come on baby please. Please stay. I need you. I need you next to me" Calum says to Luke tears streaming down his face.

Poor Calum. I wouldn't know what to do if Ashton was in a coma. Yesterday He tried to kill himself because Luke may die. He wanted them to be together. That's how much he loves Luke. Calum loves him so much he can't live without him.

"Hello. If you can just step back please. We need to check his vitals." A nurse says walking in with a doctor. We do as told and step back. We see them check the machines that connect the wires to Luke's body. After their done, they look at each other and sigh.

"Any luck?" My voice cracks.

"Um, I'm afraid that his vitals are slowing down and soon they'll stop. Completely" the doctor sighs.

Calum squeaks before hugging me tightly. "This can't be happening. No. It can't." Calum cries.

"I'm sorry" the doctor says before walking out with the nurse. Calum quickly runs towards Luke and cries.

"Luke. Wake up! I need you. Ashton needs you. Michael needs you." Calum says shaking Luke through tears. "I love you" he stops and collapses on Luke crying. Suddenly I see him stand up and run out the door, shoving past me.

"Calum!" I shout running after him. "Ashton watch Luke" I tell him before running after Calum.

CALUM's POV

I run all the way to the house again. He's gonna die. And I can't do anything about it. No. I need to be with him. Michael may have stopped me last time but now he can't do nothing. I run into the kitchen, grab a knife and start cutting. I slash the blade across my wrist and continue to do so. I rest my head on the wall and let myself slide down while crying.

"Calum!" Michael shouts seeing the blood ooze out of me. He runs over and help me up.

"No! I need him." I cry out.

"He's gonna make it. He's gonna make it" mikey starts crying himself hugging me ignoring the fact that I'm staining his shirt with my blood.

After a while of crying in each other's arms, Michael helps me get cleaned up.

"Thanks" I utter as he wrappers my wrists in gauge.

• Next Day •

After the doctors checked Luke's vitals, they left me and Luke in peace.

"Luke" my voice breaks as k slip my hand into his.

"I need you alive. I need to feel you again. I need to feel your lips on mine. I need to feel your body pressed up against mine. I need to feel your love. You have to fight through this. For me. For mikey. For Ashton. Please Luke. We all need you more than you think" a tear drop falls on my hand before I feel Luke slightly squeeze me hand. I instantly call the doctor and step back to let them work.

Please be real. Please be alive. Please come back to me.

Not soon after the doctors stop and look down and sigh heavily.

"Mr. Hood?"

"What happened?"

"I'm sorry but he didn't make it"

"No" my voice barely above a whisper.

"But I-I-I I felt it! He squeezed my hand! What do you mean he's dead?!" I yell stepping dangerously close to him angrily.

"He's alive! I felt it! I know what I felt!" I scream in his face. Suddenly he hits a button and the words come out his mouth.

"Nurse, please take Mr. Hood to the psychiatric ward "

"What?!" I shout as people come in the room and start holding me down. "I'm not crazy!!! Your crazy!!! He's alive!!! I know it!!! Fuck you!" I scream as they take me away.

***

They push me into a empty big bright white room with four flat ceiling lights and nothing else. I sit in the middle and stare at nothing. I just think of the words he said.

'I'm sorry but he didn't make it'

Those words. I've heard them before. I just don't know where... HOLY FUCK!

"My dream" I mutter to myself. Tears start forming in my eyes as I realise, Luke's death, is actually my fault. I bring my knees up to my chest and sob in a ball. After I find the point to stop crying I start rocking back and forth and start singing.

"Ring around the Rosie,

Pocket full of posies,

Ashes ashes,

We all fall......down'

I stand up and roll up my sleeve slowly. I squeeze my wrist which opens my cuts. Blood exits the wound before i touch it and start writing on the clear White walls.

I
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A
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M
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F
A
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After that I roll down my sleeve ignoring the blood oozing through it and sit cris cross back in the middle of the room.

'Hickory dickory dock,

The mouse ran up the clock,

The clock struck one,

The mouse was done,

Hickory dickory dock...'

ASHTON's POV

"Wait what? Where's Calum?" Michael asks the doctor worriedly.

"Mr. Hood was taken to the psychiatric ward"

"Where is that?" I ask.

"2nd floor"

"Thank you"

We run to the second floor and ask random people where Calum is. Soon enough we enter his room and bail him out.

• At House •

"Calum. What made them take you to the ward?" I ask him once he sat down.

"I was talking to Luke. Then I felt him slightly squeeze my hand so I called the doctor in. They checked his vitals but they said he died. But I don't believe it" Calum explains.

"His vitals stopped Calum. I hate saying this, but" Michael voice breaks. "He's dead calum"

"No He isn't! I don't believe it! I won't believe it" he cries.

Michael grips Calum's shoulders. "He's dead" he responds breaking down on Calum.