Dream's dream (Morpheus fanfic)

Chapter 0. Where we go when we fall asleep

"There you are my darling. For just a moment I was afraid my sister had gotten to you." His low voice rumbles through the cold hallway as I open my eyes.
"You know I wouldn't leave without saying goodbye." I say with a faint smile playing across my lips.
No matter how hard I try to pretend everything is fine I know he sees right through me.
He is the lord of dreams after all.
I am yet to figure out wether it makes me feel exposed and vulnerable, being in the presence of someone who knows me better than I know myself sometimes, or if it makes me feel safe.
I fought it at first, the feeling of peace rushing over me whenever I was with him but no matter how much I scolded myself for being pathetic, thinking he could form a bond with a mere mortal like me, it never stopped me falling head over heels in love with him.
Some days I convince myself that my motive for wanting to be asleep forever hasn't changed; but I am only fooling myself.
I used to wish to sleep forever to escape being awake, not wanting to leave the world of the living yet also not wanting to be a part of it anymore.
But it would be a lie if I said now I don't come to the Dreaming so often just to be in his company.
It is funny how I was so desperate for an escape, away from the waking world and death alike, thinking it was impossible.
Yet here I am, exactly in between both, accompanied by a being who shouldn't even waste his precious time on a nobody like me.
I never fully understood what he is.
He tells me he's one of the Endless, whatever that might mean.
Whenever I used to call him a God he would correct me saying God's are only real in the imagination of mortals, but I could never fully understand.
Whatever this world is and whatever he is goes far beyond my comprehension.
But that never stopped me from trying to understand who he is.
It never stopped me from caring about him so deeply that it feels as if I am drowning in his existence.

~Dream's pov~

I see everything that's beauty in her eyes.
I can never get enough of the way they glisten in the moonlight.
That's what she's always preferred, the moon in the sky instead of the sun, so that's how it will be.
I will make the Dreaming into whatever her heart desires.
Her smile gives me a feeling I have never felt before, a feeling I thought was not meant for us, the Endless.
Love is for mortals, created by Desire.
But I would be a fool to deny the all-overpowering need I have for her. The way I crave her.
I will never understand how I deserve her undivided attention, her passion, her love.
She has made me feel human in the best and worst ways possible.
I have never felt so fully and utterly intoxicated by another being before. It feels as if all the beauty in the universe is combined into one moment every time she is near.
But whenever she leaves my realm, whenever she awakens, I am left empty and hollow, a shell of myself. It is dreadful, the feeling of missing her.
Sometimes I curse her name for having put this spell on me but if I had the chance to take it all back, to have never met her, I wouldn't consider that an option.
She has made me whole.
I will never understand what made this mortal different than the billions of others that came and went before her; but she is.
She is special, and for as long as she is alive she will be home in my realm.
Whatever will happen to her when my sister, Death, finally takes her I do not know.
Only Destiny can answer that question, but of course he won't.
All I can do is hope it won't be soon, she won't take her life just yet.
Maybe I am delusional thinking she would live for me, that she would live just to fall asleep.
That sounds more like something Delirium would say.
I cannot make the waking world better for her, no matter how badly I wish I could.
All I can do is make sure she is at peace whenever she blesses me with her presence.