it's a bad idea right? | g.abrams

11. greedy are you?

"Gracie we can't." I pull away, my hands on my face.

"You keep saying that but I don't hear an actual reason on why we can't coming out of your mouth." She reply's annoyed.

"Your going on tour! With Taylor Swift. Across the country for months. If we start this now and you have to leave in a few months I'll just get hurt again. I don't want to be hurt again. If we stay just friends we can talk and keep that friendship. But we can't do that if we are... together or whatever."

"We can never just be friends after this and you know it." She sighs. "Come on tour with me. Drive in the van with me. Work on your music. Record your songs."

"I- Gracie." I just don't know what to say.

"Please. I need this. I need you."

"Jesus Gracie."

"This is a bad idea, right?"

"Maybe it's because I can't hear my thoughts when Im with you, but I don't think it is."

"I have to go." I say taking my keys and walking out the door.

"Emma come on. Really?" I hear her as I'm shutting the door behind me.

I get into my car, turn it on and just sit there. I'm not really sure where I'm going but i shut my phone off and start to drive. I realize that I'm near the beach, I don't love the beach but during night it's way more bearable.

I think i think better at night. When it's still and quiet, when all I can hear is the ocean waves and a slight breeze. I take my car notebook out, pop the trunk and go sit in it. My only healthy coping mechanism i've ever had is writing my feelings out so I start.

Do I actually want to be with Gracie? Or do I want to be Gracie. She was always my bestfriend but I think part of me was always a little jealous of her.

She always had a great relationship with her mom, natural talent, and she's like always pretty. No matter what or when. Like even when she wakes up. With no makeup, with terrible makeup. She has a perfect body which looks amazing in any type of clothes.

So I start to write out some lyrics.

smart sexy gracie
i'm losin' it lately
i feel your compliments like bullets on skin
dazzling starlet, bardot reincarnate
well, aren't you the greatest thing to ever exist
ooh i care i care icare
like ribbons in your hair my stomach's all in knots
you got the one thing that I want
ooh i try try i try
try to rationalize people are people
but it's like you're made of angel dust

My phone is going off like crazy, but I don't want to pick it up. I don't want to because I know that's it's Gracie and I know that I acted like a bitch before but I can't think about the fact that I could lose the one person that knows me as well as I know myself.

I decide that it's only gonna get worse if I continue to ignore the problem it'll only get worse, so as much as I hate it I close the truck and start to drive home.

I pull in and take a deep breath before walking in the door. Once I open it I see Gracie sitting at the island and immediately her head turns to the door.

"Where the fuck have you been Emma? I've been calling you for 3 hours! It went to voicemail. I thought you where dead. I thought you died. For three fucking hours you made me think you where dead." She says. I can see she's been crying, her mascara slightly running and her cheeks stained with tears.

"I'm sorry. Gracie. I really am. I just needed to think."

"Think about what? You know what I was thinking? That I killed you. That I told you.. you know what and that you got into a car accident or something and I killed you. I thought I-" She says starting to break down into tears.

"I'm okay. Your okay." I say going to hug her. "I am so sorry. I just needed to think."

"I can't loose you again. I don't want to loose you again. Even if we are just friends. That's fine."

"I don't want to be just friends."

Gracie smirks then leans down and connects her lips with mine. This one is more real than the other one, more confident than the last one.

Her hands start to roam down my back and I start to smile in to the kiss.

"Geeze, greedy are you Miss Gracie."

"God yes." She says pushing me up against the fridge.

Then the front door opens.

amelia's notes!!!
are they finally together??? i guess we will never know!
who just opened the door???????